My Super Depressing Story About How I Became The First One

Chapter Thirty

I stood at the stained glass window in my room, watching the sun slowly descend behind the hills. It was the night of the ceremony, when the entire pack arrives to farewell Alodie. By eating her. Still creeped me out, but who am I to judge right?

I ran my hand down the smooth white chiffon of my dress. Dress code for tonight, white. Not a single drop of morbid black anywhere. I suppose this wasn't a normal funeral, so why should I be surprised? Evelyn had explained to me the white resembled purity, and an end to an old life and the start of a new beginning. Which I didn't quite understand. It was a whole new world and a culture un-heard of. And it seemed the more I learned, the more I was lost. Rituals and rules so new and alien to me that I struggled to get my head around it all. And like hell did I know anything about purity. And was she talking about reincarnation?

"Lost in thought I see," said the deep growling voice behind me. I jumped, startled. Frost lent against the post of my bed, watching me.

"Just trying to get my head around few things about tonight," I said, giving him a weary smile.

"It is a lot to get used to, I know," he said, looking at me intently.

"There's something else, isn't there?" I asked. That look gave it away.

"Cain sent me to tell you that when the time comes for us to change, you can't stay," he said, running his hands through his silver hair. It was his tell, like Cain pinching between his eyes.

"Can't stay where?" I asked confused.

"Here in the manor or outside. It is too dangerous." He straightened up and made his way over towards me. He was dressed in a plain white tunic and white slacks. His silver hair wasn't styled in its normal comb over, it was flat and almost half way down his forehead. It made him look younger and fresh.

"Why can't I stay?" I asked.

"There are a few young wolves that have a harder time with their control and they will be here tonight. It is too much of a risk for you to be here and Cain doesn't want to put you in any danger." His face was serious, telling me that this was not debatable.

"So where does that put me if I can't be here or outside? The bunker?"

"That is where we are hoping to put you, yes."

"For how long?" I asked. The training bunker was just that, there was no bed down there nor anything else to do. What was I meant to do? Workout all night? Yeah, not going to happen.

"Not for the whole night, I will be down there shortly after the change ceremony and will bring you back up to manor when Cain takes the others for the run."

"Do you truly think that I would be in danger when you two are next to me?"

"Like I said, it is not a risk we are willing to take. Yes you would be safe, but we will not always be there. Cain has his duty to the pack tonight and I will be a part of the change so there will be a time when I myself am distracted too. And if we can eliminate the danger all together, then we will." Frost looked at me, his face tight and waiting, as if he expected me to challenge him on the matter. I wanted to, believe me. I am a big girl, I can handle myself but they are right, why put myself in danger when there is no need to. They know the ins and outs with this and I didn't. Christ, I haven't even seen a werewolf before, so I don't know how dangerous they are. Nope, this time I have to be a good girl and do as I'm told. Yay...note the sarcasm.

"Ok," I said.

Frost frowned at me. "Ok? That's it? No protesting?"

"That's it. I trust the both of you and you know more about this than I ever will so I know when I need to listen," I said. Should I be offended that he was adamant that I was going to start world war three with this? Shit I didn't think I was that pigheaded. Maybe I should start doing performance surveys to see where I am going wrong? Nah fuck that, too much hard work.