Ghost daughter

Fire from hell

Let go of me please let me die

No

They took me away from the window I started fighting with them

Stop it

No let me go

I won't let you go

They carried me to the car

I laid on the back seat my head was throbbing so hard I had physical tears streaming down my face

I walked my flight of stairs to my room and I screamed so loud I felt this surge of energy escape me

I pushed my mirror in my bathroom and took the glass and I cut myself

I went to get a bowl of soup and tub frosting which I ate the whole thing

Hey

What

I don't want to talk to anyone I'm angry

You know you should be proud that people care about you at least I didn't leave you stop making us feel bad

You really want to know I feel

Yes

I took a lighter out I should on the table

I took the only picture of my family

I burned

These ashes represent the horror I had to witness in this place this my broken self made me go insane

Did you break this mirror

I did because I did this

You hurt yourself why

I don't know for fun

Okay that what believe

Then it started raining I ran out I was singing Set fire to the rain

The boys look at me are thinking is this person insane

Get out of the rain

What it therapy for me

Eat your your food and go to bed we have big day tomorrow

Like what

Maybe revisiting your pain and maybe get you new family

New family

I want to be with you guys

I'm sorry but you need to find a knee Family

Don't be like my last family you abounded

I know but you need to move on from pain

I'm perfectly happy here and I feel safe for once in my life don't do this to me

I finished my soup and I gave a hug to ZaK I felt safe secure I haven't had that human connection for awhile

I went to my room and silently cried myself to sleep until I was brutally woken up to the worst nightmare ever

I was on the morgue table shacked and the doctor came in he raped me I woke up in tears sweating I went on midnight walk to clear my head sobbing out loud singing I can go the distance I ran down the middle of street crying

I finally arrived at my house around 2 am and I couldn't go back to sleep I texted my girlfriend

Hey babe

It's 2 am what this about

I just had the worst nightmares about my doctor raping me

Oh I'm sorry

Where are you

Some guy took me in because I was homeless

You couldn't tell me your girlfriend

Well not exactly how to say this but I think he might be related or an uncle

Are you high

No I'm losing sleep I'm deprived my depression has reached brink and I feel like suicide is my only option

You can't die I love you

I'm sorry goodbye

I soon feel asleep crying deeply

I woke up in the late afternoon

Finally the zombie wake up

Oh stop it

What

I heard you snuck out last night

Let me explain

I had probably the worst nightmare of my life I was practically at my breaking point

I went into the street and I was singing

Oh is that just going to be regular well if I have trouble sleeping that the only way to sleep for me

What was the nightmare

I don't want to talk about it hard for me

It was the doctor who raped my sister was raping me and my sister tried stopping he killed her but a knife threw her heart

I started crying

ZaK wrapped his arms around as my crying subsided he kissed me on the forehead to reassure myself that I was safe with anything I open up to him about which made feel good inside

Get ready we have journey of self discovery