If I run

Chapter 21 (Abigail)

Something was wrong with Collin... these past few days he's been really distant ever since the polo match thing...and last night he told me he had to go back to New York because of some final details for the book, and he was leaving today. "hey you need to wake up" I said walking into his room and laying down next to him "yeah, I'm getting up" he said "is everything ok?" I asked wrapping my arms around his neck and getting closer "yeah, everything is fine" he said... he was lying completely, but ill let it go "come on ill take you" I said kissing him on the cheek "I'm coming" he said getting up slowly and while everyone else was asleep we went out to the car I didn't bother to put a veil on but I brought one for later. as we pulled into the parking lot he looked nervous and upset "seriously... what's wrong?" I asked "nothing" "no Collin what's wrong?" I asked again meaning it "I don't know you" he said and I laughed "yes you do" "no I honestly don't and with every second I spend at that ok house, I find that I don't know you at all, you didn't even tell me your real name" he said "Collin, that's just stupid stuff... it doesn't matter" I said "it does matter, I know Abigail I have no clue who Aisha is... your different here a completely different person, I want Abigail back not the stuffy proper Aisha.... when you figure out your relationship with Rahjet, let me know" he said getting out "wait Collin" I said racing after him "what are you talking about?" I asked grabbing his arm when he finally stopped "Rahjet likes you and he's already driven a wedge between us... I can't win you back because you and him have history... I was just the jackass at school" he said... what? "that's ridiculous Collin... your being Ridiculous... he doesn't like me" I said "ok so he doesn't like you.... honestly Abigail or Aisha who ever you are... could you just look in the mirror, because I'm pretty confused right now... so when you figure out who you are and Rahjet... call me, wether or not you want to be together or if its with Rahjet" he said turning to go when I stopped him put my hands on his face and kissed him on the lips, it was nice and sweet but he pulled away and left me standing there in the middle of the parking lot. I held the tears back until I got home. I was crying in the car as I out my veil on... I needed to run desperately so I got out and started, I was crying most of the time and when I turned pandora on all depressing and sad songs were playing. when I got back to the house I walked in and my eyes were puffy and red and I went straight to my room, I unwrapped my hair and laid in my bed staring at the ceiling, crying and finally drifting off to sleep. I woke up to knocking on my door "who is it?" I asked "its me" Robbie said "come in" he came in and laid on my bed "so why are you crying Boo" he asked looking at the ceiling like me "I was dropping Collin off at the airport and he said he didn't know who I was and that you liked me and were trying to steal me away from him... and other stuff that didn't make sense" I said and he wrapped me into a hug "remember that story I started to tell you" he asked softly "the good luck charm one?" I asked "yeah... well your mom sent one of her letters and inside was a picture of you, just you and when I saw it, I thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world..." he said "I'm not the most beautiful" I said "to me you are.... when we moved here and I first met you, we were six and I had developed a huge crush on you, I desperately wanted to marry you, because you were so beautiful... as we got older and you complained about everyone at your school hating you, I swore I would always protect you no matter what" he said and I started crying again and he pulled me closer holding me right. "I've always thought you were the most beautiful and talented girl in the world...and I still have a huge crush on you" he whispered ad started kissing me "Robbie" I whispered but he kept kissing my neck "Robbie" I whispered again but my self control was becoming weak and I started kissing him, he started moving his hands up and down my waist, everything felt so wrong. "Robbie, stop" I said pushing him off of me "oh come on, I'm exactly what everyone wants for you" he said and it was absolutely true "yeah, but your not what I want, your like a brother to me and I don't want this to change our relationship because I cant lose you as a friend" I said and he sighed "you deserve someone that loves you" I said sitting next to him, I wasn't scared that he would try it again, because he wouldn't "yeah, I know" he said "hey, ill always be there for you, but were not going to be anything more then friends" I said holding out my hand "deal" he said smiling obviously a bit disappointed but he deserves a slap in the face sometimes "Im sorry for kind of running Collin off, he's not a bad guy" he said and I smiled "thanks, now I just need to figure out who I am" I said and he laughed walking towards the door "good luck with that" he said leaving... I'm going to need it...