Hmm. I seem to be updating a lot in this month.
Well, well. You know the drill.
It's August next month. I'm going back to school and I'm scared. I'm scared of people, I'm scared of not making friends, I'm scared of being alone.
I just got broken up with.
Maybe I should've seen it coming, but I really thought they were the one. They made me so happy. Now I can't scroll past their dms on discord without getting upset.
I just feel useless. The one thing that I really really loved, gone.
It makes me feel like nothing really matters anymore. Like I don't matter.
Something new is wrong with me, but I have no idea what. I don't like that.
I got into a argument with my dad's girlfriend again today. She insults me as usual. I don't like being called things. Being told these things.
I find it quite unpleasant.
Now I'm legitimately contemplating suicide. Because no matter how hard I try, everything just keeps getting worse and worse. No matter who I'm friends with, there'll always be her. There'll always be someone to tell me that I'm lazy, fat, a slut, etc.
Not like I disagree, but still.
I just want everything back to the way it was. I want my mother back. I want my family to be happy. I want to be happy. I don't want to make others feel obligated to help me.
But at the same time, I have to write this stuff down.
Because if something happens to me, it'll be useful in figuring out what and why.
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A Vent Book
Non-FictionTo clear my thoughts. Might be worth a read, some of my life might actually be good for a book/story and I'd like if someone manages to turn my problems into something others will enjoy. I decided to make this just because I need somewhere to vent a...
