This Is Us

Chapter 10

Harry’s POV:

After seeing Zayn and Alyssa sit there together in the bed I don't know why but a pang of jealousy hit me. I tried to reason but could think of nothing. The sight of Zayn cuddled with Alyssa made my blood boil. It made me want to smash something. It made me want to go and kill Zayn. I tried to calm myself by counting number, by thinking of someone else, something else. And I have to admit that  “that something, or someone else” always brought up memories of Alyssa and memories that are sour to remember and leave a bitter mark behind. I had to try to sleep. I needed sleep. I lied down and turned sdes, trying to find a position in which I would be comfortable. But nothing was working. My mind wandered, back to ALyssa. Was she thinking about me? Did I fill her thoughts like she filled mine?  Did her thoughts always add up to me? Did she actually care about me?

And somewhere between these thoughts sleep fancied me. And I fell asleep. I woke up the next morning when I heard something hit against my window. It was someone banging against the window. I walked up and saw a head of brown hair. It was Louis. But why in the name of god was he here at six in the morning. I opened the window and he jumped in. “Thanks mate. Tamara is behind my life.” I started laughing. The thought was hilarious. The school’s main cheerleader running behind lazy Louis. Louis glared at me, I stopped laughing. He stalked over to my wardrobe and pulled out something to wear. He was serious. Damn.

I too change into something and head downstairs. Soon Alyssa comes down she’s wearing a leather skirt that was a little too short, as in it showed off her long legs and then there was her crop top. She looked pretty, but today she had made an effort to dress up. It was evident, and that effort was for Zayn. Zayn followed behind her, holding both their bags. He was wearing my sweater and somehow he looked good. She was laughing at something when she saw Louis sitting beside me. And suddenly her face turned almost white. Louis however didn't even acknowledge her presence, he continued eating his cereal. Something was going on, something I couldn't place my finger on.

She just picked up an apple, kissed Niall on his cheek and made his way towards the door. Zayn looked confused but he picked up a sandwich and followed her. I looked at Louis and he gave me the ‘I’ll tell you later look’. I looked at Niall and nodded. Niall too picked up his bag and left through the front door. But there wasn't any school today. So where did Alyssa and Zayn go? And then it hit me, today we have band practice. Its in fifteen minutes. I told Louis and we just rushed. Running and panting we finally reached with a minute and a half to spare. I walked in and saw Alyssa and Zayn pressed against a wall. They were kissing. Louis just smirked at me and we walked towards the band room. Alyssa and Zayn joined us a few minutes later. Her lips looked oinker than they actually were. I just focused on today’s song. We had written a song along with an English student, Ed. The name of the song was “Little Things.” I could relate to the song. It described me and Alyssa. Wait what? Did I just think that? I must be going crazy now.

Niall started playing his guitar and Zayn begins singing. “Your hand fits into mine like its made just for me. But bear this in mind it was meant to be. And I'm joining up the dots

With the freckles on your cheeks and it all makes sense to me” I see ALyssa blush and Zayn pulls her close. In this song she’s playing the keyboard. Liam continues, “I know you've never loved, the crinkles by your eyes when you smile. You've never loved your stomach or your thighs; the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine.” “But I love them endlessly. Zayn smiles at Alyssa and we begin the chorus. “I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth but if I do, it's you, Oh it's you, they add up to. I'm in love with you, and all these little things.” I look over towards Alyssa and see she’s already looking at me, it makes my heart do a backflip, it skips a beat. Instead of looking at Zayn she was looking at me. A smile stays plastered on my face till my solo. Louis begins, “You can't go to bed, without a cup of tea, and maybe that's the reason that you talk, in your sleep. And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep. Though it makes no sense to me.” Alyssa has a blank expression on her face, she looks white. Just like she did in the morning  when she saw Louis. I begin my part, I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape. You never want to know how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans. But, you're perfect to me.” I know this what Alyssa feels. She hates recording her voice and she hates her body. SHe just isn't ready to accept that she isn't fat, she’s just healthy.

Niall starts his solo and I hope she gets the message me and Niall have tried to convey through this message. “You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you. You'll never treat yourself right, darlin'. But I want you to, if I let you know, I'm here for you, maybe you'll love yourself like I love you. Oh.” Soon her face is plastered with a smile and I smile back before I begin my second solo. I dont know why but when I sing the ling “And I am in love with you” I look Alyssa right in the eye. She looks at me and then drops her eyes. There is something going on inside that head of hers. And I need to figure it out. All of us sing the chorus again and clap for ourselves. Alyssa walks up and hugs Niall, she hugs Liam, kisses Zayn, hugs me but doesn't do anything to Louis. Now I can understand something is seriously wrong.

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In the evening me and Louis are sitting at his place. He is going to spill the beans now. I raise my eyebrow at him, he clears his throat and begins to speak, “Okay, so dont judge me okay. It was last year. Me and Daniel used to be best buddies. And whatever happened to Alyssa that night was my mistake. Had I not got influenced under his words I wouldn't have ruined Alyssa.” He looks at me, I just look down at my feet. “So till last week she didn't know who the was the person who dragged her to Daniel. And then she realized it was me since that night too I was talking about Tamara. And since then she’s been cold with me. Now the thing is that I like Alyssa.” I gasp. Wow, two people like her. “Ya, I like her but I dont know how to win her trust back. Help me Harry.” I nod at him and just get up to leave. He looks down at his feet. I know he feels guilty, but how do I fix this now?

I reach home and see Alyssa sitting on the front steps. I sit down beside her and ask her, “Will you ever be able to forgive Louis?” She nods her head and says, “I already have. He just need to win my trust back.” I smile internally. She is shivering, I pull her closer and she fits herself comfortable. I just wish I could freeze this moment right here.

But every story needs a twist. Zayn comes walking into the front yard. And he does something shocking. He bends down and kisses Alyssa, even as she is sitting right next to me. They smile at each other. And she gets up to walk around the area I suppose with him.

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