Let Me Love U /Jaeyong/

Chapter 39

"Why the fuck did I say it! Why did I blurt everything out like that! I don't even remember what exactly I said but I'm sure I may have said some really bad things. The only thing I clearly remember is that I told him I hated him and, that I loved him. And these two are already enough for me to hit my head on the wall. Why the fuck did I tell him I hated him, god! I don't hate him one bit. I probably hurt his feelings without even realizing it, since I'm an egoistic idiot. He probably doesn't want to see me now, or is sad because of me... I'm so sorry my precious beautiful baby... I didn't mean to say it... I'm so sorry...

Taeyong was awake but he didn't open his eyes. He woke up early and remembered the night before, feeling guilty and angry. He covered his face with both hands and felt pain.

- Ah, shit! The wounds!- he mumbled angrily and heard someone speaking next to him.

- Be careful roomie. They might hurt a couple of days, so be sure not to touch them.

Taeyong opened his eyes and saw Jaehyun standing next to the coffee table in front of the couch.

- I brought you breakfast. It's just eggs, toast and orange juice. I also baked cupcakes, because I know you like sweets.

"How could I hurt someone so precious"- Taeyong thought to himself and pouted.

He thought, that he pouted only mentally but found himself staring at Jaehyun with sad eyes.

- What is it, Tae?

- N-nothing, thanks for the breakfast.

- You're welcome, roomie.

- You're not gonna join me?

- No, sorry. I'm heading to work.

- Oh...- Taeyong said and as Jaehyun was passing him by, he reached out to grab the younger's hand to make him stay.

But when he held Jaehyun's hand, the younger flinched and Taeyong noticed, that his knuckles were red.

- What's with your hand, Jae?

- It's nothing. Bye bye, roomie! Have some rest, okay?

Jaehyun said and quickly left the room. As soon as the door closed behind him, Taeyong called Yuta.

- Nakamoto, hi!

- Hello, Yong. How are you?

- Terrible. I have so many things to tell you.

- Oh, okay. Should I be worried?- Yuta asked, having a slight idea of what Taeyong is going to tell him.

- The jerk beat me up again yesterday...also I got fired...

- What?! - The second one wasn't expected from Yuta.

- Yeah, they paid him a whole crapload of money to get rid of me, so now I'm jobless again. But that's not even the worst part. I confessed to Jaehyun yesterday.

- Oh?

- And not very succesfully.

- Did he reject you?

- No, I kinda...rejected him.

- What?!

- I told him I hate him.

- Why the fuck...

- I don't know, Yuta! I really don't know. I got mad at him for not loving me back but that's the most stupid reason to hurt someone... And I didn't even hate him, I don't know why I said it...

- I don't know that either but don't worry, he didn't seem so hurt...

- How do you know that?

-... I meant from what you told me.