The Love That Never Dies - Cody Simpson Fanfic

Part 19

Side note : {I'm so sorry that I've been away. Honestly there is no excuse but if I have to make one I guess it's just the fact that I'm lazy. I don't know if people are still going to read this story but if there is someone reading, thank you, you're amazing. }

ONE YEAR LATER ( Emmy's POV )

When his eyes met mine the only feeling able to be felt was my abundance of fear and yet the slight tingle of excitement. I kept waiting for the feeling of sadness to come rushing over me and kept waiting for my feet to carry me effortlessly across the floor and feel his arms around me. How his hands would find my waist and each finger would then connect to my body and pull me to him because he has missed my touch and he missed the way our bodies move in sync as we breath but that didn't happen. Instead my feet stayed, nailed to the ground as if he were a stranger to me. I heard his voice before I felt his presence "Emmy" he whispered so softy in my ear it was as if he were talking to himself. His voice had gotten so much deeper since I'd seen him last. "I thought that I'd never see you again" he whimpered. I noticed that he looked older, his shoulders more broad, and his arms more wide, the arms that used to hold me so well. I felt a tear role down my cheek before I felt his hand across my skin, wiping away the evidence of my happiness to see him. All at once his strong arms that have been so absent to me wrapped around me in a way that made my heart skip a beat. The boy I had left had been so much different than the one with his arms around me. I noticed through my wet eyes a small trace of ink on his skin that connected together to make a compass. It was on his arm so perfectly that for every second he held me, it was visible to me through the movement of his inked skin. I felt my skin go cool again as he let me go, a saddening cool. I wanted nothing more in that moment than to just reach out and place his arms back around me and stay there forever but as my eyes met his again, his eyes were dark, so dark they were almost animal like. "What the fuck?" his voice grew loud with anger. I looked around so suddenly trying to find the source of his anger until I realized that it was me, I was the source of his anger. "Cody, you have to liste-" he cut me off with such anger.
"No, I can't listen to you. I went a whole year with wanting nothing more than to just hear the sound of your voice. Everything I did, I did to try to find you, nothing else in the entire world mattered to me than having you back in my arms and being able to live my life with you. It's not like I was asking for the world, I was just asking for my world. But you left me Emmy, you left me without even saying goodbye and then what, you just show up here a year later and expect to just love me again, love me until you get tired and then leave?" He was looking at me with a look I'd never been given from him, it was a look of pain and grievance.
I wish I could tell him all the reasons I left him, him not being anywhere close to any of them. But as soon as I felt the presence of the others around me, I was reminded that we were standing in the middle of a coffee shop, giving the ones around us a free ticket to insanity. I grabbed Cody's arm and pulled him outside, into the cold, where our conversation was just ours.
"I never wanted to leave you Cody, and I never will. The reason that I left was to keep you out of danger that would've grown deeper and deeper the longer that I stayed. I don't expect you to understand because I don't even understand it but I was in danger and I couldn't let it spread to you".
My feet finally carried me effortlessly to him, like they haven't been able to do in so long. I felt the warmth from his palms as he placed them on my waist and I felt the pressure from his fingertips as he grabbed at my skin, tugging me in close.
"You were in danger?, What kind of danger? Why the fuck did you not tell me?, I know you said you were trying to protect me but that's my job, not yours. If you were in danger you should've told me Emmy."
I felt the movement of his lips on my forehead before they closed together to softly kiss my skin. As his lips started to pull away from my aching skin I saw the brightness of headlights through my eyelids. As I opened my eyes I found a black BMW. Cody's hand found mine but not like it used to, he didn't trace the outline of my fingers with his before interlocking them together to make make my heart flutter. Instead, his hand just simply grabbed mine, like I was a child and he was pulling me to safety. Safety, in this case being the BMW. As I climbed in the backseat with Cody by my side I noticed the driver was a young girl, or so she looked. She had long brown hair, that had we been standing might of touched somewhere near her butt and as she turned around to look at me I noticed that she had bright blue eyes that sparkled in the light. "Hi" she said with such delight, "I'm Ara-" Cody cut her off and I could feel his body tense as she spoke. "Let me" he whispered quietly to her as if I wasn't supposed to hear. "Em," he spoke with sadness "Emmy, this is Arabella. She's my um g-girlfriend" he spoke the last word with such struggle. Almost as much struggle as my heart felt when I heard him say it. It was as if every vein in my entire body stopped pumping blood for a small second. I looked up at her to see that she had a sickening grin on her face. I wanted to get out of the car, every inch of my body wanted to run until I couldn't anymore. But I couldn't run without Cody, not again. I couldn't run as fast as my legs would take me away from his smile, his newly deep voice, and his strong touch with his small trace of ink that reminded me so much of the grip he had on me in those moments. And so I sat, in the cramped backseat of a BMW with nothing but the glare of a girl I just met and all my love for the boy beside me, the boy who moved on.