Don't let go (skylox)

Fights

~Sky's POV~
I tried to recall what had happened at Tyler's. Ty said that he missed me back but when he hugged me, he pushed me away. It didn't make any sense and it hurt. It hurt like hell. I didn't understand, why is he rejecting me like this? Well I guess no one ever loved me. I'm always alone and always will be, forgotten. I closed my eyes allowing the pain and depression take over. But letting 'depression' take over isn't as easy as you think, it drags you into the darkness and drowns you in it. It doesn't let you sleep it doesn't let you see the light. It makes you inflict pain into yourself and once you start cutting you never stop. It makes you cut until you're just about to die, but doesn't kill you. It makes sure you live so it can play with your mind more and more until it gets bored of seeing your pain, which it never will.

~Sky's POV~
I woke up to the sound of my parents shouting and screaming at me from down stairs. I lifted my head and forced open my eyes. I was sill tired as hell, and my eyes were so swollen. I winced in pain as I moved my arm. I glanced down at it, my left arm and hand was covered in blood and cuts. I gasped hardly remembering what had happened last night. I needed to find a way to over up all the cuts. I pulled myself up and went to the bathroom. There I washed off the blood. There was a row of small cuts along the side of my thumb and cuts lining my wrist and forearm. I dug around in my mum's drawer and pulled out her make up kit. I dug around and finally found what I needed, foundation. Dabbed it all over my scars until you couldn't see them anymore. After I was done I swung on my bag and hurried off. I jumped off onto my bicycle and started to catch up with Ant and Sparklez.
"Hey guys!" he smiled and waved as they swerved over.
"How's you and Ty going?"
"We're still not back...well you know..."
"Together?"I nodded as they finished off the sentence for me.

(A/N I've done his a few times but I think I'll have a mini explanation. This POV below is is POV after like a week or a few days. Usually I hint it by saying something like 'like everytime' or 'it's been going on for weeks now.' 'For the past ____ I've been' so stuff like that. Just tell you guys just in case if you didn't catch on.)

~Ty's POV~
For the past days or weeks, I've gone back to loving him again. Wanting to spend every minute and second with him. Always thinking about him, my heart dying to be with him once again. But I've been holding myself back. I didn't want to get back together again and then the relationship get messed up again because of IT. But it was not just HARD it was INSANELY hard. Being around him made me the happiest person on earth but my heart wanted more but I held it back. Soon enough I felt myself only like him as a friend again. I still hung around him as a friend knowing that I couldn't act to differently. But it was time. No matter how much I wanted to be with him and needed to set it straight. Tell him that I love him, hate him, like him, adore him and need him... But I can't be with him because of the voices and everything. And I hated myself because of that.
"Hey Sky, I have something important that I need to tell you privately." I said sweetly. He nodded and got up, following me to our usual spot, where we talked about serious stuff.
"Sky. I have a split personality and well there's a part of me that loves you a part that hates you and a part that likes you. I would love to have a normal life and a relationship but this thing isn't letting me. And I have something else that I don't want to hurt you with. I can't have a proper relationship with you or anyone. Why don't we just be bestfriends at the moment?" I smiled weakly offering him my hand.
"You said you don't call anyone your best friend. And why have you been acting all luvey duvey recently, if you don't want to be with me. I'm not a TOY, don't play with my emotions." he snapped back. WHAT THE HELL??? WAS HE EVEN LISTENING TO ME JUST THEN? I felt like I could go up to him and wring his neck.
"Didn't you just listen to me? I just explained everything! Hey you know what? Through our whole fight and everything did you ever think about how I felt? When Jason was helping you by email and text you he was ignoring mine! When Tyler was by your side supporting me he was NEVER there for me anymore! Did you seriously ever think about how I felt? I always thought about how you felt! It broke my heart when I found out about how YOU felt and even when I thought about how you felt!" everything I was saying (A/N shouting XD) was true. He only thought about himself if he actually thought about how I felt he wouldn't be saying all this.
"It's true I never have. You know what. Maybe I should just let it go. Let you go. There's no point we're just going to keep on fighting and we're just gonna keep on getting hu-" but before he could finish I turned away and left. As soon as he said that maybe he Should just let go instead of being happy, it broke my heart. I knew I was still in love with him and it continued. All week I kept on falling for him over and over.
I know I will always love him but I worry everyday that he will forget about me. Forget that he loves me.

~Sky's POV~
I sighed and face desked. I shouldn't have said what I did. At least then I would be a little closer to Ty. But my heart yearned  to be closer to him. I just couldn't help it. Plus he did say before that he did say anyone was his bestfriend. I sighed again and got up from my seat. I slid into bed and closed my eyes. But that didn't help at all I tried to think about the good old times with Ty But... That just made it worse. I just ended up crying myself to sleep again.

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