Kehlani
I search around the room for anything and everything that belongs to Shaina. Sam is sealing boxes in the living room.
Shaina has been gone for 3 days straight without a word. She hasn't responded to my texts but she left her laptop and I've seen enough. So me and Sam are packing her things to finally get her out of my life.
I'm tired of choosing people who don't choose me. Chance was right. I'm thinking like a grown woman and moving her out. She can go live with whatever hoe of the week she got.
Sam comes into my room and leans against the door frame.
"That's it. I moved all the shit outside the door. She'll see it once she comes up." I nod and take a deep breath. "Lani this is for the best."
"I know. I'm just relieved."
"Do you want me to stay until she comes back?"
"No I wanna do this alone. Go back to your baby I know she misses you."
We hug and then she leaves. I pour myself a glass of wine and lay on the couch to watch Star Wars.
Loud banging wakes me up from my nap. I already know who's at the door.
I get up and look through the peephole at Shaina.
"Kehlani Ashley Parrish I know you're in there!"
"Yeah Shaina, what do you want?" I say through the door.
"You not even gone open the door and face me?"
"You disappeared for 3 days without facing me. I have nothing left to give you or say to you. All your shit is in those boxes. I suggest you get it all before it gets too dark."
She laughs. "You're a fucking bitch Kehlani. And a coward. FUCK YOU."
I walk away from the door and go to my seat on the couch. I tune out her angry cries and watch tv. There's no coming back.
Chance
"Chance I gotta go." Simone tried to push me off of her.
"No baby stay. I'll take you to your meeting myself tomorrow." I kiss her neck and face all over.
"I appreciate it but I have shit at home I gotta get."
Me and Simone have been redeveloping our relationship and getting to know each other again. I feel so shitty that I left her to go through all that fuck shit over the years.
"Fine." I get up and help her grab her things to go home. We get to the door and embrace each other.
"I'll see you tomorrow, I love you."
"I love you too." We share a kiss and I let her go.
As soon as she pulls out Kehlani pulls into my drive way.
She gets out and comes in.
"Hi Lani."
"Hi."
"Is everything okay?"
"Actually yes. I've been doing a lot of thinking and I realized a lot. We need to talk about us. Or things will never be good between us and these up and down situations will continue."
"Okay sit down."
"So I kicked Shaina out a couple of days ago."
"About time." I chuckle.
"I realize i hold on into people because I haven't gotten over my mom. She left me a long time ago and now I grip into people in hopes they won't do the same. And I'm so sorry for doing that to you. I see how it's affected you and how I've hurt you and I don't want to do that. I've never wanted to."
"I know that Lani, I don't think you like hurting me but I want to be there for you."
"But we cant keep kissing and fucking and dating then breaking up." She says.
"Yeah you're right. Especially now with Simone back, I can't do that to her again Keh. I love her."
She touches my leg. "I know you do. So from now on our romantic relationship is over. Maybe if we are actually meant to be together then we will but I refuse to force it." She tears up. "I love you but I've been loving you wrong. I'm so sorry."
"It's okay. I haven't been perfect either and I told myself a while ago I can't be selfish with you. I've been holding on to you so tightly over the years that I blinded myself."
"I'm glad we're on the same page finally."
"Me too."
She stands up.
"Well I have to go but I'm so happy for you Chance."
"I'm happy for you too."
We give each other a tight hug.
"See you later CJ."
"Bye princess."
