DESTINED TO EACH OTHER

CHAPTER 43: FLASHLIGHT REVALATION

EMILYS' POV

Beca and decided to rest for a moment before starting my new song, she slept at the couch and I went here at our room. Actually, I didn't rest at all I felt  my mind is so tired of thinking how we will start my new song. It's so hard to write a song without a subject, that's why I've been thinking of it while resting.

The truth is, I want to write a song about Benjie, about how our relationship goes, how we started and how we ended. I want my new song is all about me and Benjie, my mind tells me to do it but my heart don't like it. The more I avoided thinking about this? The more I was even more confused.

I want Beca to guide me, to instruct me and to inspire me. She can't write original songs before that's the reason why she asked me to help her in her internship, writing own songs is her biggest problem.But now? I am the one who have this kind of problem. It's just because I did stopped writing songs? Arg! I can't do this anymore.

Maybe the Bellas are write, I shouldn't had stopped writing, I should had love what I am doing, I should had care what talent I had. Their told me this before, "If you didn't use the talent or gift that God gave you, He will take it back and give it to the one who is asking for it".

Is God really take it back from me? Is God give it to Beca? I am pretty sure it's not. God added this kind of gift to Beca because He know Beca is deserving for it. The right thing I am doing for this gift? I will broaden this kind of gift that is in me, from now on, I will love and care this gift that I have.

After encouraging myself, I already have a vision in my head, a subject to start my new song. A couple of hours that we are resting I went downstairs to see Beca if she already wake up, I saw her in the kitchen making a glass of milk.

"You didn't rest legacy. I saw it in your eyes."
--- She said, she is looking at me while drinking milk.

"I didn't, but I have subject for making a new song"
--- I said to her. She raises her right eyebrow, she get another glass of milk and she handed it to me.

"Drink that first, after drinking take a deep breath, close your eyes for 5 minutes and after that follow me in the couch"
--- She whispered to me. After she said that she walked towards the couch. I did what she said and its effective. It feels like I am meditating myself.

"It was cool Becs, it helps me to think clearly, it refreshes my mind"
--- I said to her, she lowered his feet to the floor to face me.

"Do that thing everyday. So what's your plan in your new song?"
--- She asked me while smiling.

"Actually, it's about me. Loving myself"
--- I said to her, she looked confused while looking at me seriously.

"Wh--what kind of genre?"
--- She asked me again, but now she looked so serious.

"Pop music. I know you can do it. I want you to be part of my song writing"
--- I said to her, she suppresses to smile.

"I like that plan legacy. So can we start now?"
--- She said, I handed her another note and we started to write a song.

We had a little troubles in finding the right words in writing the song but we overcome it by sharing our ideas and perspective. I can say that Beca and I have a good collaboration in terms of music. We have the same taste of genres and point of view. We continue writing while waiting for the Bellas.

Anyways, Beca didn't know anything about our plan, about this plan and about the plan for meeting up with her mother. I can say that we all lied to her, we kept secret to her about her mother, but we just did this because of the reason that she don't want to talked about her past life with her family.