HIS MUSE (COMPLETE)

Baby Steps

"How are you feeling Gulf?" Mew's mother asked.
"Much better. Thank you."
"So... what do you want for breakfast?"
"Anything will do Mrs Suppasit."
"Well... the maid is making some scrambled eggs for the boys. Would you like that?"
"Sure. I can eat anything" Gulf replied.
"Morning son." Mrs Suppasit greeted Mew when he entered the dining room.
"Morning mother." He replied and walked towards his mother.
"What do you want for breakfast?" She asked her son.
"I'm having what Gulf is having." He answered and kissed his mother's cheek.
"He is having scrambled eggs. Do you want some coffee with that?"
"Don't worry mother... You sit down. I can manage my own coffee." Mew smiled at his mother.

Gulf studied the two. This was what he had been dreaming of for as long as he could remember. Having a family that loved and cherished each other. There was no fear. There was no threat. He felt safe. His brothers were safe. Nobody could hurt them anymore. He lived in constant fear for the past few years that it was hard for him not to feel afraid. When he was at school, he would worry about Zee, Saint and Mama. With Mama on his mind, he realised that he loved and hated her at the same time. Gulf knew she loved him but how could she allow her husband to abuse all of them? She was the adult! Unfortunately, Father abused her too. She loved her husband more than anything. He would beat her and would tell her that he made a mistake. That he would never do it again. That she was his world. The cycle would continue. Gulf was grateful for leaving the abusive life. He was grateful that he was alive. He was grateful that he found a new family? He was unsure himself. Mew was ... Mew... Gulf's mind was rather confused about the man. The man made him feels things that he could not decipher.

"You two wait for breakfast. I'm going to check on the Two-Terror." Mrs Suppasit said.
"Okay mother." Mew replied and his mother left the two of them. Mew then he looked at his muse.
"Gulf?"
"Gulf? What are you thinking?" Mew's voice brought Gulf back from his meandering mind.
"You. I am thinking of you." Gulf answered.
"Why are you thinking of me? Not that I mind." Mew smiled and the smile turned into a grin when he could see his muse's mind began turning, like always.
"You're thinking too much!" Mew ruffled his hair.
"Hey Old Man... my hair." Gulf pouted.
"It looks fine." Mew asserted.
"Really?"
"To me... you always look fine."
"Thank you." Gulf answered.
"You're welcome."
"So... why were you thinking of me?" Mew asked.
"My feelings towards you are rather difficult to decipher." Gulf replied.
"Take your time Gulf. I am not forcing you to do anything you don't want. If you feel uncomfortable about anything, just tell me... I would understand. Okay?"
"Positive." Gulf said. Then, Gulf started thinking again.
"What are you thinking now Baby?" Mew queried.
"Give me your hand please Mew." Gulf requested and Mew gave him his hand.

    Gulf proceeded to put Mew's hand on his chest. He stared at Mew and Mew entertained him by waiting for his muse to explain what he was doing. A few minutes past and Mew could feel how Gulf's heart was beating faster and faster.

"Gulf..."
"Yes?"
"Your heart is beating for me... And it is getting faster as we speak." Mew smiled.
"Sometimes you make feel breathless." Gulf stated.
"You make me feel breathless from the moment I saw you." Mew kissed Gulf's nose.
"In the rain." Gulf added.
"You were going to school." Mew continued.
"And you were at your office." Gulf smiled.
"You have to smile more Baby." Mew murmured.
"Why?" Gulf questioned.
"Cause I like to see you smile. You are beautiful... do you know that?" Mew asked.
"You are beautiful too." Gulf stated.
"Mew...?"
"Yes?"
"Can I kiss you?" Gulf whispered and Mew could feel Gulf's heart beating faster and stronger.
"Here? Are you sure?" Mew asked. The contemplative young man's brows furrowed.
" You are always deep in thoughts." Mew stated and used his other hand to massage Gulf's forehead.
"I have to because my actions have repercussions. People could get hurt." Gulf explained.
"Baby... you're safe." Mew assured him.
"I have to get used to this... new life."
"Baby steps." Mew stated.
"You're correct... Baby steps." Gulf smiled at Mew.
"Your heart is still beating fast." Mew said.
"How bout your heart?"
"You can check my heart if you want to... but... I have told you many times that my heart is yours." Mew replied.