BSM: The Sequel

In My Feelings!

So I finally cry myself to sleep! And my girls are next too me! Lola was on my right our backs are together. And Nicole pregnant ass was cuddle up to me on my left...I'm glad they was both here with me, I love them so much...I slid to the end of the bed..so I didn't wake them up and I went in the bathroom..and I just looked at myself in the mirror and I saw the bags under my eyes, from all the crying last night I knew that I had enough..

I really wasn't up for it today but I had a lot to do!! I had to go up to the hospital, go to Nicole doctors appointment. And meet with a party planner to get a location for the gender reveal party! I closed the bathroom door and turned on pandora while it loaded I stepped in the shower... "This woman's worth by maxwell" started playing! I step under the hot water and tons of thoughts rush my head...

I have to think of myself in the end I have to think of my happiness and who I deserve not who I want...the tears started streaming down my face..I was so in my feelings that I didn't even realize that Nicole had came in and went to the bathroom! I stayed in the shower for a few more minutes to get myself together!!! Then the next somg started and it was "What hurts the most by Monica" I couldn't even win for losing right now!!

I got out I grabbed my towel and dried off and wrapped it around me and walked out the bathroom to find Lola on FaceTime with mystery man & Nicole on the phone Al'lex...I wasn't up for it today so I went real simple! Black tights, chucks and UH T-shirt! Nicole goes in the bathroom to shower and Lola asks me Hey sis you okay? I took a moment to reply then I finally said I will be...she hops up and gives me a hug, she's a sucker for love!

Nicole comes out and puts her clothes on she grabs some tights but the shirt she has doesn't fit anymore, she walks over and grabs a Texas A&M shirt out my closet..we go downstairs to grab some food 15 minutes later Lola comes down the stairs and she's dressed in a Arkansas shirt and some tights! Lola ate and we was off to the hospital..