" I love you son, daddy loves both of you. "
The liquid on my cheeks is so warm yet the water is freezing cold. The man from the drivers seat used his last breath to said those words.
I am aware that is a dream. I was able to have a dream because there must have been a problem about my drug intake. As soon as I open my eyes, I was facing the white ceiling, clean painted walls and the room was silent except for the ticking of the clock.
I stared in the ceiling and tried to think about that scene. It was someone's memory. I wonder why.
Why do I have someone's memory inside my brain ?
Its the same man I saw on the memories I had before. The same car. We fall off a cliff and then he called me son. This isnt my memories. But why did I have it inside my brain ?
" River ? sweetie, how are you feeling ? "
Lorrie went beside me looking worried then checked me. Thats when everything came back to me. Naupo ako at napansing naka damit pang pasyente na ako.
My head still hurts but I can bear with it now. I sighed and rest my back on the pillow.
" I'm sorry Lorrie. Sorry if I am causing you all trouble. I'm so sorry. "
" no, no sweetie its not your fault. Its okay. This is my job, and you will never be a bother to me. Dont think of that. I will always be here for you "
She gave me a hug and I did the same. I am just so sad I couldnt do anything about my condition. I just feel so useless.
" I had a panic attack and my head hurts so much. I fell on the ground. I couldnt make it on my car. I was planning to take extra shots and the pills, but I couldnt make it. "
" I know, we already took care of you. It's alright, we had you examined and you're fine. You dont have to worry River, we'll do everything. I promise "
I almost shed a tear but I was able to stop myself, luckily. I simply nodded and smiled at her.
" oo nga pala, someone brought you here. Sinabi mo daw na dito ka dalhin. He wants to stay last night but I told him I can take care of you now. I told him to go home and he agreed but he asked if he can go back, he really insisted. He is waiting outside. "
Oh of course. Marahil ay nagtataka siya kung ano bang nangyari sa akin.
Napansin kong kakaiba ang ipinukol na tingin ni Lorrie sa akin. Dito na ako napa iling.
" oh please Delver, "
" what ? River you dont mean- "
" he's part of the basketball team too. Lorrie he's just a nice friend "
" huh ? wala naman akong sinasabi "
" then stop looking at me like that. "
" he's familiar. "
Makahulugan niyang sambit habang nakatingin pa rin sa akin.
" look, this isnt about anything. Me and my teammates are friends with the men's basketball team. Other than that I had nothing to do with it. "
Her face becomes blank and she turned her gaze at some direction. Naghanap siya kunwari ng mapagkakaabalahan bago niya napagpasyahan magsalita.
" so, is this for real ? like you dont really wanna give it one more chance ? "
" this is for the better. "
" but I cant see anything better than him. Maybe he's really sorry for it. Ayaw mo na ba talaga siyang kausapin ? "
