I got lost.
I am sure of that.
But I never expected something to appear out of nowhere. I started wondering, of all the times we did it, why did it happened just now ?
I did not have enough courage to protest and I know that is always happening when we are already into it. His lips on mine was always been my guilty pleasure. But tonight is not that any other intimate moments we had.
All I remember is that I kissed him back and I felt him put his both hands on the side of my head. Then it suddenly starts.
Fragmented scenes flashing on my mind. I saw a huge white room with nothing inside. Except for me and a young lad bleeding over there. I was about to go check him but it disappears quickly.
Then I saw hospital bed next and people dressed in white coats.
Then another was on a familiar room that I got to see before. I was looking at the books, but there are knives and sharp blades beside it.
And then, ... there was a girl dressed in white. She had her back turned but it seems like I was walking with her.
Then I held her hand. Its impossible for me to know but for a moment there, I felt happy.
But there was dark visions too and then blinding lights. Scenes are going too quick until I cant understand whats happening anymore.
It sent chills down my spine. I reluctantly pulled myself and removed his hands on my head. I was so frightened that I pushed him hard and get away from him. I cant breathe normally.
Mabilis akong lumayo sa kanya at napahawak sa ulo ko. I know my eyes are widened. Throat dried up, and knees trembling. I suddenly dont know what to do.
I heard his voice from the back and that somehow helped me snapped. Pero hindi ko siya hinayaang lumapit sa akin. Alam kong hindi na maipaliwanag ang itsyura ko ngayon. I cant believe this.
" Riv— "
" what did you do to me ? "
He looked a bit confused but I know he's not. I havent taken the drugs but I'm sure I heard it. The last words he whispered to me before he kissed me.
" what are you talking about ? We kissed baby— "
" I'M NOT FOOLING AROUND JARED. What did you do ? "
" I didnt do anythi— "
" Stop lying to me, damn it Rouxer. Stop playing me. What are those ? Why did I— .... WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SAW ? "
" what did you saw ? "
My anger starts to fuel up. He knows what I'm talking about. I just dont know why he's acting dumb.
" are those yours ? Huh ? Did you used your fucking ability shit ? "
" HEY !! what the fuck ? Fabiery ayusin mo yang pananalita— "
" then fuckin answer me Jared .. What are those ? "
" I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. Why would I use that on you ? Its the last thing I would do to you baby. Ano bang pinagsasabi mo ? "
" put the damn shirt on, please. "
Dinampot ko yung t shirt niya at pabalang itong binigay sa kanya at saka mabilis na tumalikod. I hurried to get my phone and dialed Lorrie's number but Jared interrupted me again.
I was about to yell at him because honestly, he's giving me creeps. And I was mad at him.
But I controlled myself for the last time and breathes. Well at least he's on his shirt already.
