My Life

Arizona/a little rant (?)

           Alright, so. I haven't been here in a while have I? Yeah sorry bout that my dudes, I was on a trip to Arizona. We drove, because I wanted to, and the way there wasn't too bad. However, the way back was terrible. I had what I presume was a panic attack because my grandpa was blaming my brother for everything that had gone wrong and he does this all the time. I was sick of it and I finally stood up to him and told him to shut up and that sometimes, it's my fault too and sometimes it's his fault too. It's not only my brother and then I broke down crying with my hands behind my head and my elbows shielding my face. I wouldn't look at him until about twenty minutes later when he asked me what if I wanted anything from a gas station that we stopped at, obviously, to get gas. I simply said no and didn't speak the rest of the way home(besides on one other occasion). I was furious at him. For my brothers whole life he had been blaming him for things he hadn't done and it had only dawned on me then. Usually, when I was upset he would put his hand on my knee and then shake it and tell me not to be mad at him. The second he tried to pull that shit, I told him not to touch me. Those were the only two times that I talked to him before we got home and I said goodbye. He's a real asshole sometimes, y'know. He's also a Trump supporter. He doesn't understand all the bad things Trump has done. It's like he's blind to all the bad. 

          Since Arizona is a hotspot for Covid-19, I have to be quarantined for 2 weeks. I have been in quarantine for four days now. I hate it here. I have to eat in my room, which is nice, but I can't physically talk to anyone and I don't like it. The TikTok problem wasn't making it any better either. I was so worried that TikTok might get banned that I almost cried. Luckily, nothing happened. Everything was pretty normal, besides the stress. 

           On a happier note, I got to spray paint over a white supremacist car. It said #WLM on it, so I spray painted over the W a B. It was much better in my opinion. I saw a whole ton of non-BLM stuff on there, so I blocked it all out. (including the Trump 2020 stuff) and said f- 12, BLM, and ACAB over it. Of course, you were aloud to spray paint on the cars, as they were easily accessible, had spray paint cans of many different colors around them and a sign that said you could. I also wrote a little love note to my girlfriend. Of course, I didn't tell her about it. I just sorta didn't know how to say "I love you so much you make my heart burst, but I wrote it on a car in the middle of nowhere on a random car, so you'll probably never actually see it." I don't think she would believe me if I told her if I didn't have proof, which I didn't because I forgot my phone in the car. 

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So, this is long overdue. Sorry I haven't updated in so long. I know, you guys were dying to know what had happened to me and why I was gone so long. I got a bunch of crystals on my trip and even an amethyst necklace. I also got some labradorite, quartz, and celestite!! I was very excited to be able to get them. Anyways, I'll see you lovelies later!! Bye bye for now. Word count: 635 words.