Book of Relief.

Hidden Reality

Is he a liar? 
He said he loved me.
However, it feels as if he was simply cheating.
My mind was damned with this false reality.
Is it too late to escape this sad calamity?

Is he a liar?
He said he loved me.
Although it seems like my body is not his taste,
I surely hope this love won't go to waste.
I'm positively sure he will change his ways.

Is he a liar?
He said he loved me.
He claimed he wouldn't have asked for a one night stand
If I wasn't fat, something he couldn't withstand.
He is not the problem, for it was me.
It was my fault for choosing him,
Someone who I thought was my "meant to be".

Is she a liar?
She said she loved me.
She was the woman who raised me,
When my mother had nowhere to be.
She also raised several things at me.

Is she a liar?
She said she loved me.
She dressed me up like a doll
And claimed she wanted me to feel pretty.
But grandma, how can I be pretty when all you've done was treat me shitty?

Bang. Bang.
What is that banging?
They said they loved me.
I'm pleading to be free,
But I'm stuck in this false reality.

Uncertainties strangle me, 
For they said they loved me.
What am I to do in order to be free?
Surely, they never lied because they said they loved me.

I downed another bottle
Came back to reality,
Hung up a noose 
And swung freely.
They told me they loved me,
But I knew them well.
Now I've escaped from my own hell,
Just to be a forgotten story.