broken home||c.h.

10: You need to calm down

March 2016

Molly's P.O.V

So, it's been a while since that gig happened.

After that one, I did a couple more with them. The guys started their rehearsals and then they'd bring me along.

I think these gigs are helping me more with my stage persona and I mean, it's good training.

So, it's very early in the morning. Getting up at 6 in the morning to rehearse and then end between 5-6 PM, I'm now learning how exhausting it is.

I miss my 10 AM wake-ups.

Literally, as soon as I come home, I run to the couch. It's become my new routine ever since this new routine,

It's a boring routine, but the guys and I can't wait till we get on this tour.

Getting up at 6 AM is a torturous thing. Getting up by force, like an alarm....a.k.a Cal, it's annoying. Not obnoxious pots and pans annoying, but annoying.

Now, I can ramble all day about horrible waking up in the morning is like, but I think imma stop there.

It's about 7-ish and so I head downstairs to make something. Some reason I tend to go for Nutella and bread with bananas. It's become a new thing and I ain't complaining.

But today, there was no Nutella.

So, I do the one and only thing I could do. Scream and pretend someone broke in.

As soon as I screamed, I heard stomps coming down the stairs and then I see him holding the hair dryer.

"What happened? Who here?" He says.

"It's not who's here. It's what's not here. Where's my Nutella?" I say while laughing and then he gives me a glare.

"Molls, You. Are. Crazy. I was in the middle of doing my hair." He says in a grumpy tone.

"Cal, you'll look like a bed head either way." I say.

"You'll look like a bed head either way." He mocks as he heads upstairs.

So, I try to make something random. Then I made my iced coffee and kept it in the fridge. After then, I catch a nap until Cal is done.

I'm surprised how much time he takes.

If I'm being honest, I can take 10 minutes to get ready. I go for a natural look. Natural meaning no makeup. Not the 'less make up natural' look.

So, I would take a little nap. Then when it's time, he get's me up again, and for some reason, he'll always get my coffee from the fridge. It's been a thing since this new routine started, and I kinda dig it.

Ok, it's been a minute since we talked about this.

Ever since I reunited with them back in December, it's like those feelings from 4 years ago resurfaced again.

Like, I don't know what it is. I guess cause we're basically living together, and he's been with me through whatever shit it is, he's been there. It's like those old times and moments from before we went put ways, they're coming back.

I sound like one of his fangirls, but the only difference is, these are genuine feelings. I tried listening to Joe West when he says that you'll still have feelings for your first love, but that shouldn't stop you from exploring....or something along those lines. But, I would say, when I was with Kyle, it's like I went back and forth in my mind. Like, when I was with him, I think about kyle. But then when we're not together, it was like Cal came into my mind more than him.