Chapter 1

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by phantom2589

by phantom2589

Christine's POV

Raoul took me to his home where I'll be staying for the time being . He held me closer to him as we sat in the carriage on the way to his house . I was devastated by what had happened . My angel left there .. alone surrounded by the mobs . He's probably dead by now .. how could I be this evil ? I was silent throughout the whole ride .

Thirty minutes later and we reached his home . He took me to the room I'll be staying in . The room is huge with so many spaces . It has a queen bed and a walk in closet ready for me . I sat down on the bed . He sat down beside me and put his hand on my shoulder pulling me closer to him . I look up to him

" Christine .. you know it's not your fault right ? It's alright now , you're safe with me . You love me don't you ? " He asked
I look away from Raoul . Do I love Raoul ? Is he really who I want to be with . I just don't know anymore , I couldn't think and I completely have no words to say . I just stare into blank space . He shook me and hold my hand . Then I look up at him and move my hand away .

" Christine .. "
" Raoul , I'm sorry . I was lost in my thoughts . I guess I'm just too tired . Could you leave me ? " Raoul look at me and nodded his head
" thank you . " I said as he leave .
" Goodnight Christine , I love you . " he said as he closed the door

I never did gave him a reply . Why ? Why didn't I say I love you too ? What is wrong with me ? I do love Raoul but why is it so hard to say so ? I need time to think , I just left my angel whom I made a promise with when I was younger and to think he will never be in my life again .. Yes he is a murderer , yes he kidnapped me but it's not his fault .. Look at the way the world has treated him , obviously he turned out the way he is . He couldn't express his love for me the right way because he never felt it . I was his only light , his only chance to escape from that darkness .

Twisted every way , what answer can i give ?

How I wish my father were here . He always knows what to say .
" Follow your heart darling , look with your heart and not with your eyes ."

I walked out to the balcony and open the door . I breathe in the fresh air and thank god because Raoul's family live near the sea . It's peaceful here . I closed my eyes as I listened to those waves . " look with your heart " I whispered to myself . Which ? I love both . Both showed me truly they love me and both were amazing and beautiful men . But their love for me is so different..

One is soft and gentle . His love for me is so tender and I couldn't help but feel so safe in his arms . He bring me to the light of the world which I always wanted . To be free . Just his smile illuminates my soul . I knew him since I was a child , he was my childhood lover . We were both still the same people in love with one another just like before but just more mature .

Then there's another who's kiss is so passionate and I can't help but felt my knees numb and the only thing that's holding me is his arms. His voice is so alluring that it filled my spirit and my soul . He is the darkness of the world but he showed me that there is beauty in it and I cannot help but felt so entranced as to the way he speaks of it .

Who am I to choose ? Will it be the safe and warm love I've always wanted or will it be the passionate and mad love my soul craves ?