heather; akaashi keiji

three

Only if you knew, how much I liked you

My back touched my mattress as my eyes looked at the ceiling. Akaashi's sweater covered half my body while I had my arms stretched out. My mind traveled to the Fukorodani setter and his deep metallic blue eyes. The way they shine when you bring up his best friend or food. The way they always seem so dead because of his serious expressions. How he can control my brother and his emo phase during the games. Ever since my eyes fell on that setter I fell into a deep crush. In reality the only one who knew about it was Kuroo, because he almost had to beat it out of me. I've feared of telling Bokuto because after all it is his best friend and baby sister. But sadly no matter what Akaashi will never feel the same thing I feel for him. At this point I try to forget this stupid crush but I can't shake it off making me frustrated. How could he like me when he probably sees me as a little sister. I know he won't ever care for me the way I care for him. That simple facts breaks me completely but I just find myself trapped in those blue eyes.  It was ironic because we barely had a friendship and I already thought our marriage completely. I rubbed my hands across my face frustrated at this feeling and hurt I had. The playlist blasted sad music that the lyric just hit me hard. Tears threatened to spill but my eyes were stuck to the ceiling. I couldn't take myself out of this thought hurting me even more. My fingers tapped around on my phone calling Kuroo through video call. I tapped my phone waiting for him to answer. My anxieties leaving my body the moment his face appeared.

Sup mini Bokuto. he answered casually his hair completely down

Hi Tetsurō. I said placing the phone against my pillow and placing my head on my hands

What happened baby cakes? Are you okay? I hear the sad music in the background. He asked moving a bit

I don't know. I sighed looking at the camera I'm not feeling well.

Kenma do you mind if I use your headphones? He asked I heard a soft mumble and some rustling Just a sec baby cakes. He said placing down his phone and trying to untangle the headphones Now, talk to me.

I just need company right now. I sighed cuddling the bear he had given me

Oh not Mr. Snuggles, this must be bad bad. He joked making me smile Where's your brother? he asked furrowed eyebrows

Practice. I sighed I just said I had homework to not go with them.

It's him isn't it? Kuroo understood quickly

Yeah. I sighed looking at the camera

He doesn't deserve your sadness. He cooed making me pout

I just need snuggles. I sighed

I know baby cakes but I can't do much. He sighed Kenma tell Koemi a joke.

Fuck off Tetsurō I'm playing a game. Kenma mumbled Koemi, let's play animal crossing

Hey don't be rude. Kuroo complained

I'm too sad to get my switch Kenma. I said making him gasp Later okay?

I'll be waiting.

Have you showered? Kuroo asked and I nodded Why do you still have his sweater?

He told me to keep it for a couple of days. I explained hiding my face

I don't have a nice vibe about this. He sighed What do you want to do?

Cry. I sighed making him pout Don't leave me alone please.