Untamed Hearts

A new morning

"How is he??? still crying??? ", Atid questions from where he is sitting cross legged on the couch with his laptop perched on the coffee table which has papers strewn all over it. He has an almost transparent with a hint of honey brown narrow framed glasses on, a ball point pen in his right hand with his thumb continuously tapping the pusher while index is busy with the tipper. He has changed from his hoodie to a grey colouredd Tshirt and dark green sweatpants.

" He is okay. Both of them are sleeping now", Arthit flopped on the sofa chair exhausted, emotionally and mentally from earlier activities. He shuts his eyes rubbing them with his thumb and index trying to relieve the drowsinees.

.....5 years ago, It was Aat Perawat, my elder brother, who had raped you.....

As soon the words came out in open, Kongpob stilled. His eyes filled with dread meets Arthit and then an eternity later one after another pearl shaped tears fall from them. Arthit could not stand anymore and takes the sobbing person in his embrace and whispers," sshhh!!! I got you Kongpob. I got you. You are not alone , not anymore. sshhh!!! I am with you. Atid is with you. And I promise, we will make sure that that monster got what he deserves. Don't cry. You had shed enough of tears. It's high time Aat Perawat pay for his deeds."

Arthit has no clue how long they sat with him caressing Kongpob coaxing him to stop crying. It felt like decades have passed when the fragile body in his arms stopped trembling and the cries turned to sniffs. He instantly missed the warmth radiating from the young doctor when Kongpob broke the hug. But instead of voicing out his emotions, he waited for the person to speak.

" You aren't disgusted with me? Don't you hate me???", the insecurity in Kongpob's question break Arthit's heart in two halves. He immediately shaked his head denying," Nono no Kongpob. I can never feel anything else but love for you. There is nothing in this universe which can make me hate you. Instead I am ashamed and can't meet your eyes. I can't believe that....that it is my own flesh and blood who gave this much pain to you. I... I ....feel unworthy of you, of your trust, your love -

"I love you"

Kongpob confessed all of a sudden cutting off young engineer who looked shocked as hell. The young doctor gives a watery smile to Arthit," I Love You. I really do since the very first time I met you. But I was too broken, too scarred, too dirty".

The doctor shakes his head when Arthit opened his mouth to contradict him," Let me finish first. If i could not tell you today, I won't ever be able to in future. You came in my dark tunneled life like a torch enlightening each and every corner. You brought Asnee in my life who somehow become my angel, my life. You and Asnee both glued my broken self one by now, gradually making me whole. Arthit, you accepted me with all my secrets, shortcomings and tainted past. You helped me conquered my demons and taught me to wore my scars like wings. Guilt, anxiety, nightmares are still lingering here but they don't possess the same control over my soul. I am healing Arthit and you and Asnee are the reason. Not only that you taught me how to love my own self, to take pride in these scars engraved on my body against my will. You made me realize that these scars are a proof of my survival, that these don't make me dirty, ugly and weakling but a reminder of how strong I am. And all of this was only possible because of you Arthit. I am grateful to these marks because it led me to you. You are worthy of each slice of flesh, each dig of knife in my body, every burnt skin. I trust you with my whole. I love you and it would never change ever"

Arthit is drowning in these whirlwind of emotions, he feels choking with the way his throat clogged with unsaid words and can only grab the other in another hug," I love you too... so damn much Kongpob. I can not live without you. I love you", a contented sigh left Kongpob when Arthit dropped a kiss on his temple.