Jimin: Hoseok-hyung.
Hoseok: Hm?
Jimin: I... want to try to get in the water.
Hoseok: ?! What?! Jimin, why would you--
Jimin: I know you must be thinking I'm crazy, but... I... I saw Seokjin-hyung in my dream.
Hoseok: !
Jimin: He told me to face my fears. I just... want to try to fight the fear! I want to go in the water and think about the consequences of my actions, fight that fear of mine of drowning and get out!
Hoseok: ...!
Hoseok was impressed by Jimin's determination. He was surprised and proud at the same time. But he was also worried and scared for his dongsaeng.
Jimin: I want you to be there if I don't get out soon enough. If... if you can pull it off...
Hoseok thought for a second.
Hoseok: Alright. Let's do it.
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Jimin was trembling like crazy, trying to resist. He was still afraid.
Hoseok put his hand on Jimin's shoulder after seeing the younger shaking.
Hoseok: It's okay. I'm here. You can do this.
Jimin smiled. He sighed as he got in the water and then drowned under it. Jimin immediately felt like giving up after getting flashbacks of his thoughts back then when he wanted to die. But he then remembered why he is now underwater. He is there to get out.
Hoseok only sat there and started counting to himself while looking at the water. As if life felt his worries for Jimin, it immediately made him even more panicky by letting him remember every time when he witnessed Jimin drowning. Hoseok felt his panic rise up and his heart felt heavy. It started beating up like crazy that it hurt.
Hoseok: Aagh... No... I can't pass out now...! If I pass out and Jimin doesn't get out-!
Hoseok couldn't help it. It hurt so bad that his vision started to get blurry and everything started spinning.
He not only remembered his worries about Jimin, but also the betrayal of his mother.
Hoseok: I can't...! I can't accept it...! I never did...! I never accepted her betrayal!!!
Hoseok could feel tears form in his eyes.
Hoseok: Fight it! Fight it! Fight it!!
He tried his best to fight the painful memories, but in the end, he passed out.
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Jimin (narrating): I get it now. I'm drowning in my own fears. I can't get out because am scared. I'm scared of reality. I'm scared of my own actions. It hurt not only me, but other members too. I could feel being dragged down. For the first time, I don't look up. I look down to see who's dragging me down. I see a figure. It's like a person in a black cloak. He is the one dragging me down. I don't resist anymore, I let him drag me. I've had enough. I swim to the figure and take off the cloak to see who it is. It is... ME?! He smirked at me as he grabbed my hand and started dragging me down. I could feel myself running out of breath as I try to break free. I get now what it is. This is an abyss that leads to my fears. The more I drag myself down, the more I remember and want to give up. I finally get it. It was I who was dragging myself down. Because I wanted to give up. I didn't want to suffer. Because I was scared to live further. But I am not anymore. I know what I did. I know why I did what I did. I want to live! It's getting harder to breathe. I could feel the figure's grip on my wrist lighten as I break free of it. Nothing drags me down anymore. I swim up. I know who I am. I've accepted myself.
Jimin finally opened his eyes as he got out of the water with a gasp for air. He coughed a little as he felt as if the heaviness on his soul vanished. He felt a lot lighter.
Jimin: I... I did it...! I did it!! Hoseok-hyung-!
Jimin noticed Hoseok lying on the floor and immediately started shaking him up.
Hoseok: Jimin...? You did it...!
Jimin smiled and nodded. His smile then turned into a sad one.
Jimin: And you...
Hoseok: Don't mention it...
Jimin: It's okay! You'll do better next time!
Hoseok nodded as he stood up.
Hoseok: I need to...
Jimin: Don't you dare touch those pills!!
Hoseok heard seriousness and anger in Jimin's voice. He turned around to see Jimin. His expression was the representation of the voice tone he had just heard.
Hoseok: But I--
Jimin: You heard me.
Hoseok: But Jimin, I need those pills!
Jimin: No, you don't.
Hoseok: I am a narcoleptic!
Jimin: I know that. But don't forget, you got addicted to drugs because of your narcolepsy! Due to stress you overdosed and look where it got you!
Hoseok had nothing to say. He knew Jimin was right.
Jimin: There are ways to fight narcolepsy without using pills! And I can help you like you helped me just now.
Hoseok: I passed out!
Jimin: But you agreed to be here! You agreed to face it in order to help me! So now, it's my turn to help you!
Hoseok: I-- *sigh* Okay... Thank you, Jimin.
Jimin: I gotta tell others that I saw hyung in my dream!
Jimin grabbed his phone and dialed Taehyung's phone number.
Jimin: He doesn't answer... I'll try calling Namjoon-hyung.
But Namjoon didn't answer either.
Jimin: He doesn't answer either-- Oh! Taehyung's calling! *answers* Taehyung?
Taehyung: Sorry, I was late to answer your call.
Jimin: Oh, it's fine. I was getting a bit worried, because Namjoon-hyung wasn't answering either--
Taehyung: Hold up! Namjoon-! *door slam*
Jimin: What's going on?
Taehyung: Sorry, Jimin. Hyung received a call from the hospital. About his father.
Jimin: !!
Taehyung: He is now heading to town asap.
Jimin: God-- Is it something serious?!
Taehyung: I don't know, but he left as soon as he heard the nurse speak.
Jimin: ! Alright. Thanks, Tae.
Jimin ended the call when looked at Hoseok who had a puzzled expression.
Hoseok: What's going on?
Jimin: Namjoon-hyungreceived a call from the hospital. Something about his dad.
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Next chapter is emotional... NO, NO ONE DIES, I PROMISE! It's just gonna be emotional. In both, sad and happy way.
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Tragedy of Bangtan // BTS FF
FanfictionThere were seven of us. Seven guys who were friends since high school and later created a group. Spent a lot of their time together. I couldn't wish for anything more. I was the happiest person in the world. Until one day... when everything changed...
