𝐋𝐞𝐠𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐞 ~ 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐱 𝐁𝐓𝐒 𝐀𝐔

thirteen - thinking

It had officially been a few months since that same incident, the two girls, Lalisa and Jisoo, cooking and working in silence. They had both found a hotel they could work in, since those boys they had 'lived' with, had completely abandoned them, so obviously, they needed somewhere to stay.

***

'Jisoo?' Lisa whispered, fumbling with her fingers as she nervously looked at Jisoo who managed a small smile, 'Yeah?' she responded, flipping the pancake she had made and sighing when it flopped, folding itself. Lalisa suppressed a smile at this and sighed,
'How do you think Chaeyoung's doing?' she asked, her voice low and wavering. Jisoo halted all of her actions, staying still in her place and not moving, not speaking, and it looked as if she wasn't breathing at all.
'I- I think she's fine, Lali. She wouldn't want us to be upset about this, we need to forget, please?...' Jisoo pleaded, turning around to face the younger and frowning at her saddened face.

Lalisa grit her teeth and stood up, clenching her fists. 'No! I can't just forget this! She was the second closest thing I actually had to a sister! AND SHE DIED!' she screamed, her face flushing red as she stomped out of the room, slamming the door harshly behind her, leaving a dumbfounded Jisoo in her spot. Jisoo knocked out of her trance and sighed, setting down the pan and pinching the bridge of her nose.
'I wonder how she'll react if I send her to anger management classes.' she thought, almost grinning at the thought.

***

Lalisa screamed in anger, pulling her hair and balling her hands into fists, digging her nails into her palms tightly, drawing blood. 'No, I can't just forget her!' Lisa mumbled, her voice cracking and a familiar lump forming in her throat as she choked up a sob, her eyes going bloodshot at the thought of Chaeyoung's mangled body, limp and ghostly white on the grass, a red, bleeding wound covering her back and her eyes deadly lifeless. Lalisa took in a deep breath and looked out of the window closest to her, a solemn look on her flushed and tear-tracked face.

Lalisa looked at the door in the room, cringing as it squeaked open suddenly, showing the girl she had grown to care for as an older sister, as weird as it may sound. 'Lali?' Jisoo whispered, looking around the room. 'Here.' Lalisa said, her voice strangely hoarse. Jisoo nodded and made her way towards Lalisa, who was crumpled up in the corner of the room. She crouched down and frowned at the younger, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath, feeling queasy.
'Lisa, I know, I do know what you feel, we've lost Jennie... Chaeng, those useless boys that allowed us to live in their house for the time being until the house had gotten shot up...' Jisoo calmly said, placing a hand on Lalisa's knee and giving a small smile to her.

'It isn't easy, for me as well, it's difficult to not cry myself to sleep every night, thinking of Chaeyoung, and- and - well, nevermind... My point is, grieving will get us nowhere, I'm telling you, Lali.' she finished, standing up and walking out of the room, shaking her head. Lalisa stared at the space Jisoo had filled recently before she had walked out on her.
Lisa opened the window to the room, sitting on it and swaying her legs in the air, outside, thinking to herself.

'Why me?'