Syn#1:Heaven is a Syn away MxM (Staten Krown)

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They both looked at me with this look of complexity. Their eyes were
enormous when they saw me enter the room. It looked like they were had just
seen a ghost. My teeth grew bear with this great uneasiness that I didn't
know how to explain...no...now I was pissed off.

"Syn," Sampson noticed, with a sort of unearthly stare.

T-Boy gave me a solemn look, "How much did you hear of that?"

"Enough!"

I heard a great amount of it as a matter of fact. I had heard all I needed
to hear. Sampson and T-Boy had a sexual history? That shit was
unbelievable. Why the fuck hadn't I been suspecting that? Why the hell
haven't I known about it if had obviously been right under my nose?

"Why are you always spying?" Sampson exclaimed, defensively.

I guess to him it would seem like I was spying on him. This wasn't the
first time he'd caught me. The last time was at the party. Yet, I didn't
feel like I had a reason not to be spying on him. He had been mentioning my
name. If I heard my name then of course I would listen to what you said
about me.

I gave him a look, "Don't get loud with me, I wasn't the one keeping
secrets!"

"You act like you always say what is on your mind."

I knew he was still speaking about the argument him and I had before. He
was claiming that I didn't know how to 'express my emotions' or some kind of
trashy excuse.

"Whatever," I said and looked to T-Boy since Sampson seemed to be finding
so many excuses, "You and Sampson had sex?"

There was quiet again.

Neither of them looked like they were answering me. Both of them looked at
the ground like little kids caught red handed stealing money out of the
collection plate at church. Their expressions were priceless. The way
they just patiently stared had this look of guiltiness. They couldn't even
open their mouths. I knew this had to be illegal in some kind of way. It
could not be legal to have sex with your adopted brother. I mean, this shit
had to be fucked up in some other way then just morally. What had I got
myself involved in with these guys?

I leaned up against the wall, my eyes brightening as though putting
together the pieces, "It figures! No wonder you guys fought over me all the
time! It wasn't even about me..."

"Syn..."

"I'm not mad," I said, smiling in a weird way, "You two can have sex all
you want."

"WE DO NOT HAVE SEX!" The two yelled almost in comparison.

T-Boy gave me a serious look like he wanted to get a point across, "It
happened a while ago. It happened years ago in fact. We were
just...experimenting. It just happened."

"Its ok," I explained, "I'm not judging you..."

I had to understand. It was so hard. Besides, I had no excuse for being
mad about it. T-Boy and I weren't together. Sampson and I weren't together,
either. I knew Sampson would probably pull the 'we aren't even in a
commitment' out and I would be stuck sooner or later. I figured this wasn't
something I should be mad at. I couldn't let them see that I was so hurt.
If I did show hurt, they would realize how advanced my emotions developed
toward both of them.

Sampson, for a moment, looked past my guise and continued his defense, "It
was one night. It wasn't really like it lasted long. We both regretted it.
It was before you even came to the house. It was before Mercedes...we
really regretted it."