Syn#1:Heaven is a Syn away MxM (Staten Krown)

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"Are you serious?" I asked Sampson.

He asked me out. He was walking me home from some rude awakening with

some new Brunswick kind of organization that I didn't know much about.

He had finally asked me out. After all those long months of waiting

for him to finally acknowledge and admit that maybe he likes me and we

should be together. I'd waited for him to admit it to himself, then to me.

Suddenly this grin formed around his face.

"No, I was just joking," he said and started to laugh.

I stared at him, my mouth open.

I couldn't believe him now. I didn't understand it really. Sampson was

someone who I believed liked me. He kept leading me to believe that in a

way. He was jealous at times (or at least seemed like it) and he clearly

said that I was attractive. So why was he still joking.

My face expressed the torn emotion that filled my mind.

Sampson's crazy laughter lowered to a light grin when he saw my

grimace, "Syn, lighten up. Don't you have a sense of humor?"

I crossed my arms and stared him dead in the eyes, "No."

"Oh did you think I was serious?" he looked confused as though in

disbelief, "Its nothing against you. You would make a great boyfriend.

Its just that I really don't want to be with a guy after all that crap with

Byron."

I listened to his excuses. I hated them. What did feminine, posh,

stupid, oversexed Byron have that was better then me? I wasn't cocky, but

I WAS pissed. I just stared a hole into him. It 'isn't' me. He plays

with me, but when it comes to dating me he all of a sudden wants to turn

straight.

"So you just asked me that as a joke?" I asked.

I sounded very serious and I had the right to be. He came out of

nowhere with a retarded joke that only he understood. If it were even tied

into something we were talking about then it would have been funny. He

reached to ask that question.

"No, I just wanted to kind of know what you would say," Sampson

explained, still smiling.

Still smiling?

Still smiling!

"I would have said no!" I snapped, "You are a fucking immature loser!

You wouldn't know what to do with me. You deserve a piece of trash like

Byron!"

I knew I had opened Pandora's Box and I didn't care. I had a lot that

I wanted to get off my chest with Sampson and I sure he had a lot he wanted

to say to me.

I could tell Sampson was a little taken back by my sudden outburst of

anger. He took a step back as though my screams were hands reaching out to