Notice Me (BxB)

4: If Only

        I ended up getting bored in my room, and I needed to pee. I got up and went back out of my room, I heard the TV on so I figured he was in the living room watching it. I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror for a second. My cheeks were kind of red still. Damn it.
        I did my business then came out of the bathroom, Kyler was walking down the hall and into his room. I stared at him for second. He was very attractive. He had a nice ass too. I quickly covered my mouth and shook my head. I'm really glad I didn't say that out loud, and I really wish I didn't even think it at all. I rolled my eyes at myself and saw him come out. I wondered for a second how my mom even found him. Its not like she could just call up some random kid right, maybe he was a relative. Whoa, that would be the most awkward thing ever.
        "Uhm, Kyler?" I asked. He turned to me.
        "Yeah?"
        "How did my mom find you? Like how did she know about you and that you could 'babysit' me." I said, putting air quotes around babysit.
        "My mom and her mom are friends and-"
        "My mom, friend? Ha no." I said.
        "Okay, they happen to know each other smart ass." He said, but he didn't say it coldly, he said it as if it was funny. "Anyway, they know each other and the other day my mom asked me if I wanted to babysit some kid and I just said sure, and here I am." He said. I nodded.
        "Okay, fair enough." I said, and turned to go back to my room. He grabbed my arm and turned me back around.
        "Why you always hiding out in your room?" He asked. 
        I shrugged. "I don't know." He narrowed his eyes and stared at me for a second, almost as if he was studying me. 
        "Okay, whatever." He said and let me go, going back to the living room. I stood there for a second and just nodded to myself. 
        
        Maybe I should try to be nice, or social with him or something. I mean he is going to be staying with me for who knows how long. I sighed to myself and walked out into the living room, sitting on the opposite side of the couch.
        "Oh, hey." he said, looking over at me for a second. I waved and looked at the TV. I have no idea what he was watching but honestly it looked kind of interesting. 

        I watched TV for a while and was getting pretty into the show, when he leaned over and kissed my cheek softly. I blushed brightly and kept my eyes on the TV. He did it again, but his lips were a little closer to mine. I  honestly shivered a bit, I almost wanted him to kiss me.
        "What are you doing." I asked, barely above a whisper. He just shrugged.
        "Trying to get you to notice me." He said in a soft voice, kissing the corner of my lips. It took me a second to realize what he had done, and a part of me wanted to turn around and let him kiss my lips. But of course, I couldn't do that. So my eyes widened and I scooted away from him.
        "I-I cant do th-that.." I said, mumbling. He looked down awkwardly and then back at the TV.
        I got up and went to my room.

        That was awkward. I sat on my bed and sighed, resting my elbows on my knees and putting my face in my hands. I honestly wanted him to kiss me, like really. But I mean, I cant do that. I mean, my crush might not even be a crush right? It could just be a common friendly attraction that my mind has played out farther. You know?
        I groaned. No, I like him. Like, really like him. Like him, like him. 
        I sighed and closed my eyes. I kept thinking about him, over and over again in my. What would cause me to like him, I mean he is attractive and all, but I don't even know him, so why do I like him. My brain is confusing sometimes. I heard a knock on the door and I shot up, opening in my eyes.
        "Yes?" I said.
        "Uh, just wanted to say sorry." Kyler mumbled. I could barely hear him though the door but I knew what he said.
        "Oh, don't be sorry." I said. Now I feel bad, I don't want him to feel sorry.
        "Oh." He said softly again and slowly opened the door.

        He stepped into my room and I suddenly felt self conscious about how messy my room was. I looked up at him and he looked back at me.
        "I just wanted to make sure you were okay, you kind of just disappeared randomly, and I thought maybe I made you uncomfortable or something-" He said, rambling on.
        "Its fine, really. I'm not uncomfortable." I said. "I actually wanted you to kiss me." I mumbled quietly after. He tilted his head and sat down next to me. The butterflies started coming back and I looked down at my hands.
        "What?" He said. I shook my head quickly and looked down. His hand touched my chin and he turned my face towards his. I gulped and stared at him. He smiled a bit and his thumb traced my lower lip, it looked like he wanted to badly to kiss me, but for some reason he didn't. He sighed and dropped his hand. I tilted my head a bit, trying to figure out what was wrong.
        He got up and mumbled a sorry before leaving my room and closing the door behind him.