Black Ink [Harry Styles]

Chapter 37

Harry

Nessa is heartbroken, I can't believe I have hurt my beautiful girl so much.

I had hung onto some hope that she hadn't seen the pictures and I would be able to explain what happened. But the minute I saw her and her brothers, I knew she had seen them.

She was so detached and eerily calm for most of our conversation, it broke my heart. I saw a flash of anger and sadness, but it was like she had just closed herself off to me and the pain.

When we started dating, I promised her that I wouldn't hurt her or cheat on her, and I have.

I knew it was coming, but when she eventually told me to leave, and not contact her, I have never seen her look more resigned. She looked so brave and beautiful, but at the same time heartbroken. And I did that to her.

As I arrive home, my phone goes, and for a minute I hope its Nessa but I know that it isn't.

"Hi Gem" I say as I answer the phone. I really don't feel like talking but I know if I ignore her, she will just come over.

"Hi Harry" she says cautiously, before she says "H, we saw the pictures. Are you okay? What happened?"

The thought of Gem and my mom seeing the photos really upsets me. My mom must be so disappointed.

I explain what happened to Gem, starting at how I told Nessa I loved her, then getting wasted and kissing someone else. I then told her how heartbroken Ness was and how she ended things.

"Oh Harry, I am so sorry. I know how much you care about her"

I am trying to keep calm, but talking to Gemma is making this whole thing real.

"Thanks Gem" I reply, but I can't help the tears streaming down my face. I think Gemma knows I am crying but she doesn't say anything.

"Listen Gem, I have to go. I'll call you and mom tomorrow yeh?"

"Okay H" she says sadly as she rings off.

I sit on my bed with my head resting in my hands, thinking we were so happy last week, and how just a few days has made such a difference.

Nessa

After I tell Harry to leave, I sit on the floor for ages. I cry for a while but mainly I sit in disbelief. A couple of days ago I was so happy, I thought I was so lucky to have found Harry. Now I can't believe what an idiot I have been. After Oliver I swore no more relationships and no more caring and love. I ignored what my gut was telling me and let Harry into my heart.

I eventually get up and try pour myself a glass of wine but my hand is shaking so much, I drop the glass and it shatters on the floor. So, I grab the bottle and walk over to the couch and sit there, staring into space.

How could Harry do this to me? 

Maybe he was high and thought it was me, like he said. But the thought of that girls' lips on his, her tongue exploring his mouth and him kissing her back makes me feel sick and my skin crawl. And for someone to take a picture and share it, I am so fucking embarrassed. He says it was just a kiss, I think I believe he didn't fuck her but doubt is starting to slip into my thoughts.