𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗮 𝗣𝗼𝗹𝗶𝗯𝗶𝗼 🎆
𝑀𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑎𝑠 𝑃𝑂𝑉
𝗜 𝗠𝗘𝗦𝗦𝗘𝗗 𝗨𝗣. I fucked up everything. 10 years have gone to waste. I wasted her time when she could of been with someone better. But I still wanted her. She was my everything. But I let her go for some slut I started flirting with. Before I met y/n I was a drug addict. I was young and I knew the consequences in doing them but I couldn't resist them. The first time trying it, It felt weird but good. Later on I became addicted. I couldn't go more than 1 day without them. My parents didn't know at first but then found out I was doing them. I was fucked up. I went to parties, got drunk, but most of all I did drugs. I tried stopping but It was impossible. Or so I thought. When I met y/n, she changed me. I promised not to do them anymore. And I did. She was my happiness she was the only reason I was stable. And without her I'm nothing. Tears were streaming down my face. I thought I loved Cynthia but once I saw y/n break down I knew it wasn't love. It was just to pleasure myself but it wasn't love. What I had with y/n was nothing but love. And now I don't have her. My sadness soon became into anger knowing that I let someone else get in the way of our marriage.
I yelled from the top of my lungs and broke down
"Why did you Have to leave me !" I said as I slid down the door. I put my hands on my head pulling on my hair. I couldn't take it anymore.
I went downstairs knocking anything I saw over. Picture frames, vases, and books were thrown to the floor to shatter. I went downstairs doing the same thing and heading towards a cabinet. I pulled out everything out. They're was weed,molly, etc. (Idk anything about drugs so don't come for me.) the whole night I got drunk and high. I was on the floor with everything in the house scattered. My eyes were bloodshot red. My cheeks were hot from crying so much. If only I could reverse time. If I could I would. I regret it. I regret it all. I wish I didn't cheat. I wish I didn't start smoking and doing drugs again. I wish I didn't even start talking to Cynthia. I wish I were 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙙. I lost the person I loved and cared about the most. It was all gone. Now I'm lonely with nobody to keep me stable. I'm a cheat and a liar to her. While she still remains the love of my life. And it's all my 𝙛𝙖𝙪𝙡𝙩.
𝑌/𝑛 𝑃𝑂𝑉
I got out the house and started walking. I stopped once I was far enough from the house. I was tired and hurt. I really thought he loved me. My whole life I thought he was the one. But I guess I was wrong. I guess love isn't real. I fell down the floor and cried hugging knees. Rain was pouring onto my body making me shiver from the coldness. I didn't even have a place to stay. I was all alone with nobody to comfort me. Mattia had Cynthia and I had nobody. As much as I wanted to stay I couldn't. He didn't deserve my love anymore. I let out all the tears that were in me but then stopped when nothing else came out. I stood up looking at the sky letting the rain pour on my head. Then I thought about 𝙖𝙡𝙚.
I hesitated in calling his number but he was the only one Left. I pulled the phone to my ear and heard it ring once until u heard his voice
"Hello?" He said in a raspy voice
"Uh hey ale did I wake you?"
"I was just going to sleep but are you alright?"
I hesitated in answering him. I didn't want to break down knowing that once I start I can't stop
"Um c-can you p-pick me u-p?"
"Yeah ofc but are you ok?"
"I will tell when you get here"
"Are you sure?" I heard him say
"Yes " I said my voice cracking.
"Ok I be there in 5 minutes"
