She takes my hand into hers, her thumb brushing over my knuckles. I didn't want things to turn out like this. I thought we'd have more.
More seconds of laughter.
More minutes of learning.
More hours of loving.
More time instead of leaving.
More.
I still remember the first time I ever saw her face.
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Line 6 subway, headed to Manhattan after a long day doing my clinical residency at the Med Center in Queens. My body aches the moment I sit down, my muscles still spasming from the lack of rest. I'm thinking a long hot soak is in order for when I get home.
Two more stops.
Two more stops and then I'm home.
The doors nearest to me open and a rowdy rough bunch clamor their way into the railcar, visibly excited for the nightlife and whatever their plans were. I miss having the free time, hanging out with friends, goofing off late at night. On the other hand, I don't miss having to nurse a hangover the following morning.
The following stop, all but two of them get off, probably headed to Nyoka bar a couple blocks away.
All of a sudden the two girls that stayed behind bust out laughing. More often than not, I'd be annoyed by it after the day I've had. But tonight, it brings a small smile to my lips hearing someone genuinely laugh.
I look towards them, seeing a short haired brunette and a brooding blonde, doubled over in laughter makes me smile even more. Then, a little sad because I miss my friends. I have a bad habit of getting so wrapped up in work that I forget that I needed to confirm plans, or even worse, an apology because I've missed plans.
I love my job, I remind myself. But my social life doesn't.
The railcar slows to a stop, and to my surprise, the two girls get off at the same stop as me. I stop for just a moment, something in me wants to talk to her. But I can't bring myself to do it. So I turn on my heel, headed in the opposite direction. I can hear them giggling as they walk down the street.
Once I'm home, I peel off my scrubs, tossing them into the hamper before drawing a hot bath. I take a deep breathe and sigh. I'm so glad I have the next two days off. Although, it's not like I'm going to do much aside from sleep.
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