I wiped my tears then i walked out the door and nick and darinaka were done with the ride so i grabbed my helmets they handed to me
Da: hey your not ok
Au: yes i am
Da: i could tell you have been crying
Au: im fine umm im gonna um go now
i put my extra helmet at the back off my motorcycle and put mine on and i hopped on and drove to my house i got there and put on sweats and a t-shirt with a hoodie and got on my motorcycle and rode to the hospital where i saw my mom taking chemo and when i saw her i broke down crying
Mom: sweetie im ok but if i dont make it just know i love you
she closed her eyes and her moniter started making loud noises and the doctors pushed me away and started helping my mom i ran home crying scared my mom wasnt going to make it i went in my house and fell asleep without eating dinner
* Morning *
i wake up and have a bucnh of texts from everyone asking me to come over so i looked in the mirror and i had eye bags and puffy eyes and i didnt feel like doing my makeup because i didnt really care then i got my outfit
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then i put my glasses over my face so nobody would see my eye bags and puffy face then i got on my motorcyle and drove to the hype house
* At the hype house *
I got there and walked in and everyone came up to me
Addi: HEYYYYY
Da: how are you
N: you ok
Au: im fine i just..... was tired and my mom wanted me home so yeah
Da: hey no glasses inside bad luck
darianka took off my glasses and everyone saw my puffy eyes and eye bags
N: are you ok
Au: IM FINE
i ran out the house and sat on the driveway and cried and dixie came up to me
D: how is she
Au: horrible i just i do-
then i got a call from the hospital
Au: yes
hospital: your mom is doing great
Au: WAIT REALLY
hospital: yesyou can come visit her if you want
Au: OH MY GOD YES
i hung up and looked at dixie wide eyed and smiling
D: what happened
Au: MY MOM IS OK
D: wait really
Au: yes im going to visit her
D: want me to come
Au: yea you drive tho
D: YESSS
we got on the motorcycle and put our helments on and dixie drove us to the hospital
~ A the hospital ~
We got to the hospital and i went into my moms room and she looked more sick then ever
Au: mom they said you were ok
Mom: i wanted to tell you that im quitting chemo today
Au: WHAT WHY
Mom: because i cant keep fighting and if i die i have two presents one under my bed and another one in my closet the one under my bed open that on your bothday the one in my closet open it on your 18th birthday ok
Au: o-ok
i wiped a tear and my mom told the doctor to do it and they did and her monitor immediatly started beeping loud and they pushed me and dixie out of the room then i saw they stopped and my moms monitor was just a line sh-she di-died my heart dropped and i cryed into dixies shoulder and she comforted me we rode back to the hype house and i was still crying and i didnt care who saw my momdid everything she was the strongest woman i knew and she did this she stayed with me when my dad left and even through rough times she was there for me i continued crying and everyone came downstairs and saw me crying and dixie comforting me
N: WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED
nick pushed darianka off him and ran towards me and gave me the biggest hug ever and i just kept crying
Da: WHAT HAPPENED
Addi: YEAH
Au: n-n-nothing im fine i- um i just need to go home
D: your not going home like this
Au: b-but
D: LISTEN UP EVERYBODY IM NOT GOING TO TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED BECAUSE ITS NOT MY PLACE TO TELL BUT ANYWAY ITS AUTUMN'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW AND WE ARE GONNA MAKE HER HAPPY oh also autumn your not fucking leaving
Au: o-ok
Th: ummm are you ok with sleeping on the couch
Au: yeah
i wiped my tears and put my head in my lap the only person i ever really loved died i started tearing up again but i didnt let any tears escape my face i just stayed like that until i felt someone hug me from the side and i look up to see darianka
Da: you know you can tell me anything right
Au: o-okay my m-mom had cancer
Da: oh she doesnt have it anymore
Au: no she-
Da: but you said she had cancer
Au: s-s-she s-sh-e dd-di-e-e-d
Da: awww its ok
Au: thanks im glad i can trust yo-
Da: EVERYONE THE REASON AUTUMN WAS CRYING WAS BECAUSE HER MOM DIED FROM CANCER
then before i could say anything darianka snapped a picture of me and posted it on her private insta and it said thats why your mom died from cancer freak i started crying and stood up
Au: WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT
Da: i told you to stay away from my boyfriend
she said that and everybody was downstairs including nick
D: YOUR A SICK BITCH DARIANKA
Addi: YEAH YOUR GOING TO HELL
D: meet you there biatches
i got so mad i just puched dariaka in the face then i ran out the house and got on my motocycle and went back home then i cut my wrists and put on a hoodie and made sure my house door was locked then i cried myself to sleep
