A little too much [L.S]

C 2- Nothing more

Styles~ the broken one

The bottle landed on Louis and I didn't want to kiss him. He was the only boy except me and I ain't gay or bisexual.

"Harry, you don't have to do it.." Louis whispered and stared at the floor with a blank expression.

"You sure?"

"Yes, I know there's a lot of pressure since I am the only dude here, I'll just go to bed," he said. "I'm tired anyways."

Louis said goodbye to the group without answering any questions and went straight to his room.

I didn't really question anything since he looked exhausted.

When the party ended an hour later and everyone had gone home I was left alone with a probably sleeping Louis and our dog Cody.

Cody was a puppy husky with light blue eyes. We got him 2 months ago when we decided we both wanted a dog and made sure the other boys were okay with it.

Suddenly Cody ran upstairs as fast as he could, quiet barks filling the silent house. I followed Cody upstairs and heard small sobs from Louis room.

There was a loud bang, a scream, more sobs and breath hitching.

"Louis, is that you?" I yelled as I ran the last few steps in the stairs. Cody was barking and scratching the door to Louis room and I started banging at it.

"G-go away-y." He cried out.

"No, please let me in." I replied with a gentle and caring voice.

The shorter boy screamed and cried even more.

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I opened my wet eyes and quickly got up from the chair. It was just a dream. But also unwanted flashbacks.

I made my way to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My cheeks were red and dry, eyes red and puffy and my hair was a total mess.

Zayn texted me and told me that the boys would like to hang out to just talk things through. Ofcourse I agreed and we all agreed on meeting at my and Louis apartment at 5:30 pm today.

The clock just hit 10 am and I was hungry. I walked over to Louis bed before leaving the room to get breakfast. He looked so peaceful, so beautiful.

I know I shouldn't think of a boy that way but it was true. Even though his pale was skin, arms marked with fresh and old scars, he was beautiful.

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It was now 3pm and I decided to go home to rest. Louis was still sleeping and I needed to rest.

Walking into our apartment felt weird, noone was listening to loud music or laughing. It was empty.

My mother decided to bring Cody over to her house so that I could rest, which was nice of her, but it made the house even more quiet.

I couldn't help but walk into Louis room, missing his laughs and jokes. On the desk was a diary. It was open and the page didn't seem to be finished.

Me being curios I couldn't help but 'accidentally' read it.

Hey, It's been a while.

I feel broken right now. Like nobody cares nor do they like me. If someone ever tells me they care they are all full of lies, they pity.

I don't want pity.

Today me and Harry invited some friends over for a party. At the party we played spin the bottle and ofcourse it landed on the only dudes in the room, me and Harry.

Harry does know about me being gay, so does Liam Niall and Zayn, but he doesn't know about my feelings for him.
I know he doesn't like me back and I didn't want to have him kiss me, I knew it would've meant nothing to him.

So I ran upstairs and locked myself into the bathroom, where I am currently writing this.

I want to dissappear, rest in a peaceful world to watch over other people and helping them.

There's a blade next to me, and a bottle. A bandage, band-aids, paper and a cup of water. I'm now going to take the blade, slice it over my flesh and swallow all of the pills.
I don't even know why I'm writing right know, I guess it makes me feel better.

If anyone reads this, stay str

There was nothing more, the last sentence was shaky and some letters were hard to read. I don't know I even missed this, him feeling down. I'm so stupid.

Wait, he likes me. I never noticed that either. I like him as a brother nothing more.

But, he likes me, more than a friend.

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I know this was short, sorry but it's 3:20 am and I wanted to post it.