Dreamnotfound Oneshots

[7] Computers and Catastrophes pt.2

TRIGGER WARNING
contains self harm/suicide, bullying, mentions of abuse, and drug use so please don't read if you are sensitive to those topics! also this a highschool au
(slight nsfw for the end of this chapter)

  "I'll never forgive myself..."

It's been a few months since I met Clay. We continued to hit it off after that first day and have been joint at hip ever since. I think he's my best friend; I've never had someone in my life that makes me laugh and smile as much as he does, I've never had someone show genuine interest in me, or show concern for my own well being 24/7, I've never just had a friend. He's the only good thing to happen to me in 17 years, and he doesn't even realize just how much he means to me.......ugh fuck. I turned my phone back on, not realizing it shut off til I snapped out of my thoughts. 1:45am. Well that's just fucking perfect, and on a school night too. I opened up my texts.

Clay

                                         I know you won't see this til u wake up
but do you want to walk to school
together tomorrow?

I put my phone on its charger, and reached my arm up slightly to shut off my lamp, enjoying the immediate peace of the darkness. As I tried to make myself fall asleep, I couldn't help but let my mind wander to Clay. There wasn't much else for me to think about really. Since he came into my life all of the bad thoughts have subsided, leaving me content. I wasn't happy still, sure I had moments but it wasn't like that all the time. I was doing fine, which is better than I can say I'd been doing before him; he brought out someone in me, I didn't even know was there. I love him alot, even if I'd never admit to it. I mentally told myself to shut up and tried to dissolve the thoughts swirling through my mind.

I awoke to my phone ringing, I looked at who was calling. I closed my eyes back again, before jolting up realizing it was Clay who was calling me. "Hello?" I answered groggily. "Did I wake you?" He said faking concern, "Good! Time to get up dumbass, you're the one who wants to walk to school together." He said laughing at me. It's funny to me how I know him well enough to know exactly what he looked like when he was speaking to me over the phone. "Oh fuck off I forgot, I didn't sleep well last night." I said with a groan "And I have a headache too." I whined clasping my hands over my face. "Awhhh poor babyyy, do you need me to kiss it better?" He said "No I do not thank you very much." I returned with a huff. "Are you sure? I can kiss alot of things better if you'd like." He said laughing. "Clay are you implying that theres other things wrong with me? im hurt." I said faking sadness, while mentally willing him to shut up so the blush on my face wouldn't get any darker. "You know I think you're perfect." He said back. Well so much for not wanting to continue blushing this deeply. I told him I had to get ready and that I'd meet him outside in 10. Perks of living a few streets down.

I finished getting ready, and went downstairs to pack a few snacks for the both of us, because Clay never stops eating, he's like some black hole or something. I put all the snacks in a little lunchbag I used to use when I was younger. I had spent the last of my weeks money buying the snacks last night, but thankfully it was friday so it wouldn't affect me too much. I left the house and walked to our meeting spot, a back room to a house currently under construction that no one owned yet. He was already there when I arrived. "Since when are you early?" I asked grinning at him. "Since you promised a surprise." he said grinning back. I started walking back, and motioned for him to follow me when he stood there. "Come on loser, how am I gonna surprise you if you just stand there staring." I started, "Literally what is there to be staring at?" I finished. "You. Duh." he said with a wink, "But seriously I just spaced out for a second. I cant believe this is the first time I'm skipping school, you bad influence." He said and started to finally follow me. "..whatever" I said quietly hiding my face by looking down. He kicked the side of my shoe with his and we kept walking.