I felt sparks.
Major ones.
I was happy, at least a little. I have a reason to wake up now. I've been here, not long at all, but I know these past two days have been miserable. I've done a good job hiding my sadness, but I've broken down on the inside. Gally is my only sense of sanity.
I pulled out of the hug and stared up at him. He was so adorable. I love-I LIKE HIM. What just happened? Anyway... I love his eyes though, that's a fact. He had crazy blue/green eyes and I just wanted to stare at him forever. Wow is all I could manage.
I walk away and sat down on a log that was near the fire. Most everyone was out here now, excerpt for Fry, and Thomas and his crew. When I say Gally sat across from me by his other friends. I didn't mind. I was alright with being alone for awhile. I kind of just lost my other friends.
When Newt, Minho, Thomas and Chuck walked out, I turned my back to them. But I felt the log shift, and a hand on my back. I turned around and smacked the hand away. It was Newt.
"I'm sorry for everything. We had no reason to treat you that way, and if you like Gally, then so be it."
"He was pretty mad, Newt."
"Yeah, well I'm gonna let you in on a little secret." He directly faced me. "Thomas has got a crush as well. He's angry that you're all over Gally, because he thinks you should be with him."
"What right-"
"He was your first friend when Gally was treating you like klunk."
"Yeah? Well when Thomas decided to run off into the maze, Gally was there for me. I needed someone and he was there."
"You've got a point. I'm gonna go before Gally sees me talking to you." He stood up and nodded. Then left. I was alone with my thoughts now. I had a lot of thinking to do. I truly felt bad about being so mean to them. Newt was right. Thomas was my first friend in the glade, but when he ran off, I was panicked and worried. I needed someone, and Gally was there. I developed feelings somewhere along the way, and that's where I'm at now. I am the only girl here. I understand that I'm most likely going to have to deal with a lot of crazy guys... but I'm not attracted to them. They're already like brothers to me in a way, and the way they talked about Gally made me never want to be around them. I'm sure that'll wear off, but I'll never forget.
My thoughts were interrupted when I felt a hand on my back, and someone sitting next to me. Thomas.
"Thomas, just go away." I said, not bothering to look at him.
"I'm sorry."
"I don't care." I said, mocking his tone.
"I really am sorry! It's not easy for the rest of us when you're all over Gally. Im pretty sure I wasn't the only one who was mesmerized when I saw you come up in the box. We all like you. All of us. How could we not? I have no memories of girls or girlfriends and I'm sure that none of these other boys do either, and you're always so positive. You're the only one who's come up and not freaked out of cried or screamed or tried to run. You're calm and happy. Or at least you do a damn good job pretending. You bring sunshine to the glade, Shelby."
"I don't know what to say... I mean, thank you. That really means a lot to me. And you do too, Thomas. You mean a lot to me too. You know I have feelings for Gally though..."
"I know. I know you care about Gally. That's fine, but you have to understand you're the only girl... we all like you and that won't go away. But I truly apologize for what I said about you."
"...what exactly did you say about me?"
"I um, I said you ditched Gally... to sleep with me."
"THOMAS YOU-"
"Shelby, it was a joke. I didn't mean for the whole glade to find out. I'm sorry."
"That's why Gally was so mad! He believed me though. He trusted me..."
"Yeah, well I'm glad for you. I'll leave you be now." He smiled and walked off. I wasn't as angry as I should've been. I sat there and sighed. What was I supposed to do tonight? I have Thomas back. That's great. And I have Gally and Newt. But they all already had other friends. I was just the girl. I'm absolutely sure the majority of them didn't want to be just friends with me. I decided I was pretty bored, and I'd rather just be alone if I can't be with Gally. So I walked out to the deadheads. I sat against the tree that Gally had pinned me to the other day... Ah, man, Gally. Can't stop thinking about him. I need him in my life right now. He makes me sooo happy! I wondered if we would've been so close outside of the glade. Honestly, I'm happy I'm here. I'm happy I met Gally. Maybe if I had my memories things would be different... But being here and now in this moment in time, I was happy where I was. Almost immediately, I heard heavy footsteps coming my way. I looked up and saw Gally.
"Everything okay, greenie?" He sat down in front of me, which is adorable because his knees almost reached his chin-he was very tall.
"I'm fine! I'm actually in a pretty good mood. Just figured I was alone at the bonfire, so I'd go somewhere more quiet."
"Hey, I'm here. You weren't alone."
"You were with your friends. I wouldn't bug you."
He lifted my chin with his hand and looked into my eyes, his sparkling in the moonlight. "You will never bug me." He smiled. Gally's smile was a rare occurrence. I loved it with such a passion. When he did smile, my heart melted and I wanted to tackle him with a hug. We both stood up, and I brushed some dirt off of me, Gally doing the same. "Are you coming with me?" He asked me.
"Of course, if you want me to."
He nodded, and we walked off. We were so close, our heads kept touching. Eventually, he just grabbed my hand making me get chills. His hand was so much bigger than mine, but it felt like our hands were made for each other to hold. When we got back to the bonfire, he let go of my hand, knowing the other guys would still be butthurt that Gally was with the only girl.
We sat down where I was before. We both were watching our surroundings, just relaxing.
"I have a surprise for you after the bonfire." He said, staring at me.
"Alright..." I said, smirking. He nodded, and then turned his attention to the bonfire. I did the same. No one was fighting tonight, yet, and it was sort of just peaceful. I liked it. It's never very peaceful in this place. I knew though, that this wouldn't last. Last week Gally fought Thomas, and Thomas won. Maybe Gally has decided not to fight anymore? I doubt it. I yawned and stretched my whole body. Gally put his arm around my waist and scooted closer to me.
"Are you getting tired?" He asked me, wide eyed.
"I'm alright. Just a bit bored, to be completely honest."
"We can go, if you want."
"I'm fine. I'd rather be here with you than anywhere else." When I said that, I meant it. I'd rather be here, in this damned place they call The Glade, then anywhere else in the world. I know I don't know tons about the world, but I also know that Gally makes me a really happy girl, and I couldn't lose him. Even if it means I lost all my other memories.
Gally's eyes sparkled and he slightly smirked, his arm still around my waist.
"Gally, are you fighting tonight?" I asked with puppy dog eyes.
"I doubt it. No one... challenged me." I saw a red glint in his eye, and I knew by "no one challenged him" he meant no one messed with him. That was a lie. He knew I knew what he was thinking. He wanted to hurt Thomas. I knew it. But if he fought Thomas he'd probably kill him, and then get banished.
"Okay." I said, trailing off. I got up off of the log and sat behind it, my back to the fire. Gally immediately sat next to me. He was so close to me. Like he had to be. Like we were cramped into s small room and this was the only space. He sighed and looked at me for a couple long seconds before saying something. "Shelby, I'm happy."
A puzzled expression came across my face. "Well, I'm happy you're happy."
He slightly laughed and then continued. "No, you... make me... happy. I used to be happy. I went through the changing and I... changed. No one was nice. No one helped me. No one was there for me. But you... you were the only person in this shuck place that showed any care for me. Or even paid attention to me. You're... special to me."
I threw my face into my hands with a dumb huge smile spreading across my face. I felt him lift my hands from my face.
"Don't cover your beautiful face." He smiled a real smile, and I could finally see the happiness in his eyes. He was truly happy. I couldn't help but smile back and he faced me and kissed my cheek really quickly before standing up. He reached a hand out to help me up, but when I grabbed it and got up, he didn't let go.
