POV of chuuya X dazai

WHY AM I STILL PUBLISHING THIS BULLSHIT

hes weird, into weird shit too, but finally I lost it and ended up stabbing his left eye as it slowly bled while he looked at me in disbelief that I had done such a thing, he was still singing that god awful song though, after I had pulled my knife out of his socket he grabbed me unexpectedly and made me sit on his lap- i could feel it....i didn't know what to do in the moment and looked away in embarrassment and annoyance, it felt big, at least he still had his bottom half clothes on, but little did I know, he wasn't gonna have them on for much longer....