don't you want me baby....

chapter 40 -over thinking

(Jon pov)

I stood at the top of the stair case looking down on sandy walking away. I stood there and heard her car zoom off. Everyone else didn't really know where to look. I walked of without saying a word.going into my room, and lying down on my bed with an empty space beside me. I pulled out my phone and scrolled through my contacts I found 'true love' and changed it back to Renee. something I never did since we broke up. I decided to text her.

Me: she knows.

putting it bluntly with no kiss no explanations I didn't really want to go over it with anyone. Not even with myself. I got a text back almost instantly.
Renee: what?! How?! What happened Jonathan!

Jonathan... Jonathan.... Jonathan.

The last word Sandy said to me, she never called me that once before. Never. I knew when she said it she was serious. Having anyone else call me that now was different it brought It all back to me what Renee and I had caused.
Me: I'll see you soon...

From their On in I ignored any texts from Renee about her worrying I should be worrying not her, I was the one that hurt her fucking up something that could have been so good and for what? A silly little affair ? Yeah sure once upon a time it was me and Renee together but now? It all history I kept going back for sex even though I got it from Sandy now....

I looked through my old photos on my phone to ones dating back to me and Renee silly selfies, caught of guard photos and couple pictures- one when we first got together,our first date and our little adventures out with the squad laughing... Looking at each other. Our engagement pictures. Now the tables had turned it was Sandy I shared these silly moments with now, sandy was now 'jon's girlfriend' whose apart of the group. I looked at mine and sandy's first photo together when we were at the night club ,right after we shared our dance. How could things go so bad in a little amount of time.

I turned my phone of and placed it on the bed side table. I noticed the necklace I gave Sandy at Christmas lying there. I didn't have a thought on it I didn't know what to think.

I shut my eyes knowing that tommorrow we were leaving for the next town and Sandy might not be with Me to see the next......

This is such a shitty chapter I didn't proof read it and It was probably really boring.
Anyway this chapter was kinda all about dean and his thoughts, showing the contrast on his time with Renee and his time with Sandy.
Next chapter will be a really interesting one.
Bye bye chikas!!!