I'm in love with you,old man..(completed)☑️

15. already late..

Kathleen Jade

"Please, g-get out..." mahina kong sabi sa kaniya.

I tried to resist his hold kahit pa parang mabubuwal yata ako.

I just went silently and sat on my bed.
Parang nanghihina ako sa hindi ko malamang dahilan.

Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko.
He then touched my face.
Then hugged me in the end.

Although I tried to avoid him, but he insisted on keeping me inside his arms.

I felt his warmth against me, though I craved for someone else's body.

I just closed my eyes and let him do what he wants.

I am alive yet I feel like I'm on a drunken state.

I feel empty...
I feel like I am a walking zombie.

I feel like I am dead,yet my body is still roaming in this place.

I don't know what to think.
I don't know what to do.
I don't even know if,I can still go on..

I feel like I am worthless.
I feel like I am useless.
And I hate this feeling...

I missed him...
I just did...
I missed Marcus Conrad..
I missed my Marco..

My tears are starting to fall again and I don't have any intention of stopping it.

Everything came flashing my mind.
From the very first time we meet, until he left..

Gusto ko siyang sundan.
Kahit hindi pwede..

Gusto ko siyang makita kahit sandali.
Gusto ko siyang mayakap kahit saglit.

Ang aking hikbi ay tuluyang napunta sa paghagulgol nang magsalita si Damon.

"L-let me help you forget about him..L-let me love you now.."Wika niya.

Ang boses niya ay para lamang bumubulong sa akin.

"I'm so sorry if I left you then..Ang akala ko pwede naman kitang kalimutan kapag nasa malayo na ako. .But it didn't happen,.. you're hunting me everynight I sleep.." halos manindig ang balahibo ko sa pahayag niya sa akin.

I looked at him but he just shake his head.

"I'm so stupid for what I have done.
I'm so stupid for not staying and not knowing you more.."sunud sunod niyang wika sa akin.

" I-i don't understand you.."sagot ko sa kaniya.

"I know I am l-late..At alam kong wala na akong babalikan.He already owns you.Every single bit of you.. " sagot niya habang yakap yakap ako ulit.

Pagkatapos kong matahimik sa pag iyak dahil napaisip ako sa kaniyang mga sinabi ay dahan dahan namang napakalas siya nang yakap at umalis sa tabi ko.

He kissed my forehead then turn around and leave me inside my room.

Naguguluhan ako sa kaniyang mga sinabi.

He hates me as far as I can remember.
He doesn't like stupid people.
He doesn't like me either..

So what's with him now?..

Why is he acting this way?..

Sa ganuon akong sistema nang marinig ko ang kotse niyang paalis.

Nakatingin na lamang ako sa kotse niyang papalayo.

Maybe he is also leaving now.

Maybe he is also tired in taking care of me.