Bittersweet ~ ( Haikyu x reader ) ~DISCONTINUED~

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 7

⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️
(Y/n POV)

As I got home I ran up and went up the stairs I ate on my bed hugging my anime plushies I felt so bad I really hate it when someone comments on my body I felt so fat and I really hated it. I couldn't stop crying my cat kept rubbing against me after I ate I went into the tub and filled it up I undressed and got in I started to have a breakdown "Why can't I just be skinny!" I shouted to myself crying in the tub "I hate my life. I hate my body!" I cried harder I saw a razor blade I stared at it after a few seconds I grabbed it I sliced my wrist 4 times it hurt badly but I didn't care it made me feel better the water was bloody, my eyes were red, and my cheeks were puffy. I dried my wrists and body I wrapped my wrists in bandages and got dressed I heard a knock on my door it was Shōyō "F/n! Are you alright?" He said with a really worried expression "Yeah..I'm okay I'll cya tomorrow thank you for worrying about me" I said giving him a sad smile with a hug. "O-oh alright if you say so I'll stop by and come get you tomorrow" he said with a blush and he walked off and I closed the door and went to my room to sleep.

(Tsukishima pov)

I saw Hinata leave and L/n close the door. She looked so messed up I feel pathetic. I should apologize maybe tomorrow I will. I was kind of jealous about her hugging Hinata.

Timeskip to morning
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(Y/n POV)

I got up and fed my animals I decided to just say while I was riding I fell and scraped my wrists and took a shower it stung a bit but I can manage. I decided to not eat because of yesterday.. I grabbed my skateboard and my uniform for work and ran out the house and bumped into someone and realized it was Shōyō "oh sorry Shōyō" I said "it's alright" he said with a blush and he ran to his bike while I got on my board.

After a while we made it to school.

It wasn't time for 1st period yet so I went to the vending machine when I saw Kageyama I went up to him "Hey Kageyama!" I said with a smile "oh hey L/n" He said and I hugged him and he hugged back

(Kageyama pov)

I was just thinking about L/n and then she just appeared?! Why does this girl drive me crazy and I wonder why she has bandages "Hey Kageyama!" She said "oh hey L/n" I said and she hugged me?! It felt so warm and my face was heating up and I hugged her back.. I can't wait to make this girl mine "Milk?" I asked her looking at the vending machine "Sure" L/n said with a cute smile and I got 2 milks for us but when I handed it to her the bell rang "Oh cya at lunch Kageyama!" She said "oh alright L/n cya" I said waving bye to her while she left.

(Y/n POV)

As I walked to my class I arrived and took my seat and then I saw Tsukishima and Yamaguchi enter I tensed up a bit.

(Tsukishima pov)

Me and yamaguchi walked in the class and saw L/n already there she didn't look her best and why does she have bandages I'll ask her after practice. She tensed up when she saw me and looked away and Yamaguchi and I took our seatings waiting for sensei

(Timeskip to lunch)
(Y/n POV)

The bell rang and I got my bag and went to the gym but before I went to the vending machine to get milk after I made my way to the gym again.

After a few minutes I open the door to only Kiyoko, Suga, Daichi,Tanaka, and mr.Takeda so I put a fake smile just because I didn't feel happy today kind of..don't get me wrong I love all the members equally with all my heart! They all greeted me either with a Hey or a nod  "Hey guys!" I said after I went to the locker room to put on my gym clothes I didn't want anyone to see my bandages so I love how the jacket is long sleeve. After that the rest of the guys got here I waved at them and we all sat down in a semi circle. Daichi had made the set up for the aoba johsai match I wasn't surprised when Daichi said Shōyō and Kageyama were put starting like they're perfect with that crazy quick attack! Poor yamaguchi I bet he thinks every other 1st year is more special to him..maybe I'll cheer him up before I leave. After that mr.Takeda went over the positions after that they started to practice I sat with Kiyoko "Okay Hinata lets call you the number 1 decoy" Kageyama said to Shōyō "I'm the number 1..decoy?" Shōyō say with a disappointing tone while he fell to the ground "Man that sounds lame.." He also said "We'll use you as a distraction while we rake in points! That way the other spikers can do some damage!" Kageyama shouted "You take the tall Tsukishima guys but you can lead them right into our trap" He said with a smirk the way he looked at Hinata all I could see was  determination it was hot I blushed. He saw me and blushed too I looked away fast.

(Kageyama pov)

I felt my face heat up as soon as I saw L/n looking at me blushing. I think I have a chance with her! Also since oikawa is at Aoba johsai I can show off maybe I'll ask her if she could be my fake girlfriend although I wish it was real it'll have to do. I felt so many glares on me I just smirked they were just jealous of me.