I thought I'd be happy
When you'll show up again
I thought I'd be over it
I thought I'd be over it all
I thought I'd forget who you are
And what you've done to me
But here you are
And I still remember it all
Like it just happened
And here you are
Asking for forgiveness
Making me wonder what should I forgive you for
Making me wonder what should I reply with
Should I tear you up just like you did?
Should I walk away and pretend it doesn't hurt?
"I FUCKED UP AND I AM SORRY"
Wasn't it all I wanted?
Wasn't it all I waited for?
"I FUCKED UP AND I AM SORRY"
Oh dear, I wish I could forgive you
And even if I could
It won't change anything
And I wish it would
You said "you'll learn, you'll grow"
Oh dear, all I learnt was to cry in silence
To cry with no tears
To cry till I couldn't catch my breath
And all I learnt was to hide my scars
To hide my scars so no one could notice them
"You'll learn, you'll grow", you said
And I never wanted to grow this way
But I grew
I grew when you left
Took all my colours and left
Left me fade in the darkness
Left me all by myself
Wondering what should I do
...What should I do without you?
And I wish you'd knew
That I would die for you
I mean, haven't I?
for The 1975 lover.
YOU ARE READING
This Is For You
PoetryEvery part of this, is about someone/something that went through my life, and changed/affected me, even a little bit -and some fucked up thoughts- Every part has a diffrent story Date of starting: August 4th, 2020 Date of finishing: Nov 21th, 2020
