The dark is here
My thoughts feel heavy
Now I just can't sleep
Should I ignore the mess inside me head?
Or clean it before going to bed?
But tonight I'm broken and I just want to see them growing till they haunt every corner in my head
I'd take thinking about all the blunders I did and all the lines I crossed before I close my eyes
Hoping it will help me
Even better hoping it will kill me tonight
My thoughts feel heavy
Now I just can't sleep
And I'll think twice am I guilty for skiping breakfast?
Do I deserve all the rest I'm taking?
Do I deserve all the breath I'm wasting on my silly days?
Do I deserve to live?
Or it's just a torture for all the mistakes I did in another life
Do I deserve being trapped in this body?
Do I deserve being trapped in this life?
And I'll think twice about an escape
Is it a pill?
Or starving myself instead?
Burning my head would be great if I just dare to do it
Or ripping it off my body but if I just know how to do it without a pain
My thoughts feel heavy
And I just hate them
Whenever I want to sleep
They show up and say
"no not today"
But when?
I keep asking myself
"When you feel whole", they said
-about thoughts that keep me down-
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PoesiaEvery part of this, is about someone/something that went through my life, and changed/affected me, even a little bit -and some fucked up thoughts- Every part has a diffrent story Date of starting: August 4th, 2020 Date of finishing: Nov 21th, 2020
