Count the stars - 1D HS LT

Something great

The whole ten hours plus of that plane journey, all I thought about was that text. I couldn't get it out of my head. So many questions sprung to my mind; does he still want me? Why didn't he fight for me? Why tell me this now, a year down the line? Does he love me? I couldn't rest. I ended up getting off of the plane one hundred percent more tired than when I got on. I managed to get myself out of the airport and into a taxi before coming out of my trance. "That's £18.50 miss." The driver said to me. I shook the thoughts from my head. "Sorry. Here - keep the change." Handing him a £20. I get out in a daze and grab my bag from the boot. I opened the door and made the familiar journey up the stairs. I'm still thinking about Louis and realise I've had about an hour to reply to him, what would I say though? Yes, you've still got a chance even though my boyfriend wants to marry me?! It's ridiculous. Harry has always been the love of my life yet the tiny glimpse I had of life with Louis felt so perfect.

"Paige?" a confused voice breaks through my thoughts; I look up to see Lana's familiar green eyes. I've been stood outside their door for about 5 minutes without knocking or ringing the bell. She had obviously come out for some reason and didn't expect me to be stood there, "Are you okay?" I burst into tears right there and then - big powerful sobs. Lana hugs me close and guides me into the apartment. "Paige." I heard Niall's worried Irish tone.
"Shh hunny it's fine." Lana says sitting me down on the sofa. She rubs my back. "What's happened?" I hear Niall asking where Harry is in a whisper and I feel Lana shrug next to me. "He wants to marry me," I say between sobs. Niall passes me the tissue box as I'm pretty sure I've got snot dripping down my face. "Who does?"
"Who do you think? Harry obviously. He told everyone on red square radio we are getting married." I wipe my eyes with a tissue, they're starting to get sore.
"So, these are happy tears?" Niall asks and I shake my head furiously.
"We had a fight about it because he hasn't even asked me and I'm not suuu...surrreeee." I say wailing. Lana is frowning next to me. "Why are you not sure?" The sobs are still washing over me. "Because..." sniff. "Cause..." I feel butterflies in my stomach because I haven't actually said this out loud. "Cause..." Lana is hanging on to my every word. "Louis." I finally manage.
"I knew it!" She shouts and I jump. "I'm sorry Paige but I fucking knew it! This whole time I knew you were holding back because of him. I know it! Ha Niall! In your big dumb face!" Niall rolls his eyes and shakes his head.
"But you haven't seen Louis since... how do you know." Niall asks trying to be the adult in this situation.
"Saw him yesterday." I say rubbing at my nose with a tissue.
"What?!" Niall and Lana say in unison.
"At work. James arranged it for when I was off, the shit. I popped in to get some stuff. Louis was there - he was the one who told me what Harry had said. He was rough looking but I just wanted to grab him."
"Oh wow. What did he say?" Lana asked.
"That he wanted me to fight for him. Like how was I supposed to know that?" My eyes are dry now. "Oh, and then he sent me this weird text before I boarded the plane." I get my phone out of my pocket and show Lana.
Good to hear. Means I still have a chance... if you want me. Louis x
"Like what the actual fuck is that meant to mean?" I look at them for suggestions.
"I think it means he's not over you," Niall perks up, "The question is now what will you do?" I lean forward and put my head in my hands, I can feel the tears starting to well up again. I'm exactly where I was just over a year ago. I'm meters from where Louis made my decision. I look up and I shake my head. "Well I can either marry Harry and try not to think about Louis ever again and if I've made a huge mistake or I can take a chance with Louis and hope that it's not a huge mistake." I place my head back into my hands.
"Well you don't have to make either of those decisions right now. I would like your help with some wedding stuff but you look exhausted so maybe go to bed? We can talk about it in the morning?" Lana smiles sympathetically. I make my way down the hall and to my old bedroom - wow, it's changed. It looks like a hotel room and it's pristine, not like how I used to have it where the floor was an overflow to the wardrobe. "It looks amazing Lana." I say as I feel her stand behind me.
"Thanks," she says blushing, "Goodnight, I'm sure everything will seem better in the morning." She walks back towards the living room. I put my suitcase in the corner and look around the room. The night Louis left echoes in my mind; His small glance back at me then leaving. My heart aches. I slowly get undressed and get into bed. Within seconds of my head touching the pillow, I'm gone, fast asleep.

My phone vibrates itself off of the table. I groan and reach for it.
"Hello?" I say, my voice thick with sleep, unsure of what time is it or where I am. I had dreamt of the beach; I'd lost Harry again and I couldn't shake the feeling of a broken heart. My head had projected in my sleep exactly what I needed to be reminded of. How I felt when I had left Harry, how I left a part of me behind - Harry was the other half of myself... The person who makes me whole. "Hi love." I sit up quickly pleased to hear his voice.
"Hi H. You okay?"
"Yeah. I've just landed. Shall I get a hotel?" I'm confused. Then I remember our fight, there's nothing I want more right now than to be in Harry's arms. To feel safe, feel secure and know that I'm not losing him; to be selfish and mend the broken feeling the dream had left me with. "No, I..." I pause. I think of Louis for a second. Then I remember how I feel around Harry, how everything just seems right with him. "I want you." He laughs down the phone.
"You want me?" I can tell he's smiling.
"Yes. Please."
"I'm on my way, baby." My heart leaps.
"Okay let me know when you're here so I can let you in, I think the lovebirds are in bed."
"Sure, I will be 10 minutes. I love you." He whispers.
"I love you too."

I get out of bed and move into the living room to wait for Harry. The apartment seems strange to me now, I have moved on so much and it feels weird to be in my old safe space. The memories I have here are small compared to the memories I've had with Harry. The vacations, the dates and the tiny little moments that sometimes escape your mind. All of these adding up to the relationship that we've built together. Is Harry my true love? He could be. Do I want him to be? Absolutely. My phone vibrates and the butterflies in my belly flap around. I just need to tell him how much I love him. How much he really does mean to me. I don't know my true feelings towards Louis but that doesn't make me any less sure of my feelings towards Harry. I've loved him since I was 20 and I just hadn't realised it until this exact moment.
I'm coming upstairs love. - H
I run to the door and open it in a hurry. There he is. Stood in black baggy joggers, a band T-shirt and his scruffiest pair of trainers. Clutching onto his Gucci x Disney suitcase his muscular arm showing off his tattoos; his hair pushed back off of his face, his green eyes sparkling yet tired and his smile so large that I wish I can live out my days in the dimples formed on his cheeks. Harry Styles. My Harry. My H. I fling myself into his arms and he throws his suitcase down so he can grip me back tightly. He kisses me several times - the top of the head, my cheek, my neck - anywhere he has access to. Finally, we find each other's lips and get lost in the moment.
"Harry I'm so sorry." I begin turning and walking away from him. Trying to stop tears from falling.
"No don't worry about it. It's fine." He says.
"No, seriously, I can't believe..."
"Paige will you just turn around and look at me?" He raises his voice slightly and it sounds nervous. Bit rude. I turn slowly and he's on his knee. "I've been going over things in my head for the whole flight. From the beginning of our story to now. My life is so much better with you in it. Paige, you've been the one for me since before I can remember and for the last few hours, I've been thinking I might just lose you and I've never been so scared - I can't go through that again, you are my whole world. I love you with every single part of my body, mind and spirit. Paige Louise Sanderson will you do me the biggest honour and marry me?" He fumbles in his pocket and brings out a ring box. My heart is going to beat out of chest. He opens it slowly and inside is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. A pear-shaped tanzanite stone sparkles in the dim light, surrounded by a halo of diamonds with more on the band and all set in white gold. My breath catches, it's beautiful. His emerald eyes look up at me full of passion and hope. I'm reminded again of everything we've been through to get to this point and I've never loved anyone as much as I love him in this moment. The tears begin to form behind my eyes. I look down at him and smile.

"Yes, Harry. Of course I will."