I'm in pain. I'm in so much pain. I cant do anything right. I keep finding reasons to do it. I dont want to be happy I just wat to be okay. I need her to respond. I'm scared. I'm scared because I think I'm falling in love again. I cant hurt her though but shes the only one who I can tell. But I cant. Hurt. Her. She said she'd be available in 20 minutes but it's been hours and I'm afraid shes not okay. I just want a hug. I want a hug from her. I want to get back together but I cant because I know she'll say yes just so she wont hurt my feelings. I'm being selfish. If I knew what I loved I would be doing it by now. Everything makes me want to leave. I cant keep up. It's like I'm running a race and I've run out of breath every note is a hurdle I have to jump while I'm gasping and choking on my own spit. Its my fault for running. What am I running from? Why dont I just stop and get off the track?
I love her and its tearing me to pieces.
I just want to love someone else.
Maybe not loving at all would be good.
I expect to die rather soon.
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Somesuch and Other Nonsenical Ramblings
RandomIt's like the goldfish one but make it shitty and not poetry Update: some of it is poetry because i always upload to the wrong book
