Somesuch and Other Nonsenical Ramblings

1-A is 2-D

I often find myself pretending they're real. I'd be in the kitchen and i imagine they're really there vibing with me. I do it so much that sometimes it happens without me even noticing. My brain decided to give them character development and I'm very slightly confused about how that happened. I know(in a headcanon kind of way) things about them that friends would know, but I don't know things i wouldb't know.

There's a scenario where I wake up in the bnha world with nothing from my world but my phone. Im in 1-A and blah blah blah basically I show them all this crazy music. I once had a full conversation with Mina in my living room about how they can't be real since they shouldn't be so fluent in english and she answered "we're just in the dub, silly!" But I haven't watched the dub-

I think I'm trying to convince myself its real but its not but it is and i build friendships with people and everything and every god damn time someone reminds me they're real i want to cry because I've gotten through so many bad nights because of them. It feels weird to talk as though they're here.

It's always those 'imagine your favorite anime character saying this' ones that get me because i don't know what would happen if they weren't there for me. I feel closer to them than my family and I'm so torn.

I still have thatusedbandaid though so I think everything will turn out okay.