Hypnosis And One Bitchy Attitude

Confusing

'Morning' Nick said gently shaking me and I gave him a half hearted nudge, trying to untangle myself from my sheets. 'How are you?' He questioned and got a grumble in response. 'Well' He said. 'While you take your time, I'm gonna pick some clothes for you as I've got a good plan for today.' He said enthusiastically,  making me groan. 'What about these.' He offered holding a sports bra, knickers and a pair of overall shorts with a baggie neon orange shirt with some thongs (flip flops). Scrunching my nose I got off my bed and grabbed my clothes, shooing Nick out of my room.  

After our chat yesterday I felt like had the strongest connection with Nick. I don't think we are anything more than friends. But definite friends.

I lazily got ready as someone started pounding at the door. 'Hurry up I've got you breakfast!' Called Nick, jeez whatever he had planned he wasn't wasting any time on it. I walked out and  was handed a fruit salad. 'C'mon I've gotta leave soon, but I need to share my plan first.' Wait I thought Nick was coming with me wherever we were going. This was so confusing.

He took me into Sam's room. Why. 'Its sound proof ' He said, answering my thoughts. Ah because of his sonic scream.

'Anyway. I was hoping that you could talk to Rebecca today. She knows you aren't ok and you guys didn't get off to a great start. I think she could really help you. If you aren't ready that's okay. But if you do talk to Rebecca I think that you should talk to Bucky. I'm planning on you talking to everybody. Team bonding.' I didn't like this plan. I just wanted to shut the past behind me. Maybe I shouldn't have opened up to him. Seeing my reluctant face Nicks smile faltered. ' I uh well. Maybe not. '  I mumbled walking out of the room. Leaving him standing there.

I was so confused with myself. I used to be so happy and glide through life. Then I stopped a school shooting. Then I'm kidnapped. Then attacked. Then willingly taken away. Then I murdered my family. I became an orphan. Then I pretended I was fine. I cried and told people my problems.

I did this all for no reason.

I smashed in Theo's chest as I walk further away from Nick. 'Woah' He said grabbing my shoulders as I looked at him startled. Then I ran. I ran out the building. Through the parking lot across the road. To the oval and to the bridge. I climbed over the railing and sat on the edge looking at the water metres below.  

'Nat' Called the team as I just sat there. I didn't want to talk.  I was so confused. I wanted to hide, put the past behind me. I couldn't think or speak. So as the team ran towards me I did something stupid.

I jumped off the bridge.

My chest  smacked the cold water and I knew instantly that this was deep water. Hearing screams I slowly sank deeper into the water. Then the world went black.