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Chapter 7

Chapter 7

I was stunned for what I saw. I tried to move but my feet couldn’t. Tila kinuryente ako at hindi makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko.

The kissing stop when they felt that someone is looking at them. George was shocked and push the girl immediately from him.

Doon ko na lang naramdaman na parang may bumuhos na malamig na tubig sa akin.

I immediately run away at dumaan na sa hagdan.

“Mae!” George called me but I don’t want to. He held my hand and pulled me towards him.

I slap his face without warning. Nanginginig ako dahil sa bugso ng damdamin at nangigilid ang mga luha.

“Don’t cry Mae! Don’t let him see that you’re still affected! Madison Elyna! Don’t look stupid!” I told myself just in my mind.

Akala ko nakamove-on na ako. I was ready to focus my attention to Luca but I was wrong. I know deep inside kung bakit ayaw ko pang magpaligaw kay Luca. Ayaw ko man aminin but I still love George. I still have my fucking feelings for him!

I trained not to cry when I’m angry. To just mask it with stoic and emotionless face. To pretend that you’re not affected but I guess I’m not like that.

Hindi ko kaya. Duwag pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.

George hug me and I’m confuse! What is he doing? Nakokonsensya ba siya or what? Naalala lahat ng sinabi niya sa aking nung gabing iyon lahat ng insulto.

Tinulak ko siya at gustong-gusto kong sapakin ang mukha niya but he’s not worth my fist. Masasaktan lang siguro ang kamay ko sa sobrang kapal ng mukha niya!

“I’m sorry for what I said that night. Hindi ko alam dahil lasing lang ako. At iyong nakita mo kanina, she just suddenly kiss me. I was caught off guard.” This motherfucker!

“Oh? That’s why you kissed her back huh? You know what? Don’t worry I don’t mind.” I told him that and rolled my eyes on him.

Pumunta ako ng restaurant at dumeretso sa kanilang cr. What the fuck did I just said? Napakagaga ko talaga dahil yun lang ang sinabi ko. Fuck! What was that? Such a looser Mae!

When I went back. I saw Luca sitting at the table alone at parang may hinihintay. He saw me at naglakad siya patungo sa akin.

“Can we have a meal together? I wanna talk to you.” I nodded. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko and guided me towards our table.

  I just ordered grilled tuna and shrimp pasta naman ang sa kaniya. He’s looking at me intently while eating.

“What’s wrong? You seemed bothered.” How did he knew that? Am I really that transparent?

“Let’s just talk after we eat. Gusto kong pumunta sa dalampasigan at manood ng sunset.” Sabi ko sa kaniya.

Hindi ko namalayan kanina ang oras na hapon na pala kami nakatapos sa pagdedesign akala ko tanghali pa lang dahil sobrang tirik pa ng araw. Pinuntahan ni Kate si Charles sa room nito para magdiscuss tungkol sa project.

Pumunta na kami sa dalampasigan at umupo sa may buhangin.

“Mae, when I told you I like you. It’s true.” Humarap siya sa akin at sinabi ang mga katagang ito.

Pero ayaw kong manggamit ng tao para lang makalimot. Hindi ako siguradong masusuklian ko iyon o mamahalin ko siya higit pa sa pagmamahal ko kay George.

“I still love him, Luca.” Nangingilid ang luha ko pagkatapos ko itong sabihin.

“I can’t assure to like you back when I still have feelings with other man. Hindi ko alam kung paano. Gustong-gusto ko nang tanggalin siya sa isipan ko pero hindi pa rin. Nasasaktan pa rin ako kung nakikita ko siya. Na bakit hindi niya ako pinili gayong nandiyan naman ako lagi sa tabi niya.” Pagpatuloy ko.