Falling Awake

Part 22

Cassie Merrill

Day ten

We all feel awful. Jory is doing the best out of all of us, I got a little better, Denny got ten times worse. We're all super worried about him. This is bad, and hard, and I just wanna get out of here. I don't care if I die or wake up, I just want the end. Happy ending would be preferable.

Jordyn Merrill

Day ten.

Denny's condition is getting really bad, i'm doing pretty well, and no one wants to tell Den but Will is getting way worse. I don't think he's going to survive much longer. I love will, he's a super nice guy, and I really really don't want him to die, especially for Denny's sake, but I don't think he can recover from this. He's barely breathing, and he barely has a pulse. I think I read somewhere that patients can have like one last blast of adrenaline, and get way better, before they crash, and die. I don't know how to tell this to Denny. I know every emotion that will pass through his head, every feeling, I know it all from when I lived it. Will has to survive this. For Denny

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Jordyn Merrill

Day eleven.

Will's getting really really sick now, I think he's dying. I don't want to believe it, but I don't think he can bounce back from this. I think i'm the only one who can write anymore, and I don't know how long it's going to last. We're all dying. Denny's getting really bad now too, his forehead is as hot as a radiator, and we can't get him to eat anything. Thinking about it, I don't know when I last ate either. Things are bad. Really bad, and getting worse.

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Jordyn Merrill

Day twelve

I think Will is dead. I saw him leaving the apartment, late last night, and ran out to stop him.

"Tell Denny I love him, and that i'm sorry for being such a screw up dad" he murmured, looking back at me "I don't want him to watch me die." then he shuffled along, leaning against the wall. I don't know if he was delirious, I should've stopped him, but I think this is what he wanted. All I could do was watch as he wandered off into the distance. Denny would kill me if he ever found out I didn't stop him, which is why he won't find out. I think Denny was doing a little better today, I stopped by to check on him and he was even making conversation

"Can I see my daddy?" Denny asked, weakly

"Denny" I began softly "Your dad left..."

"Oh?" he sighed "when's he coming back?" he inquired, breaking my heart. Trying to hold back tears, I finally choked out the words Denny had been dreading.

"He's not coming back, Denny, he's dead" I watched Denny's face crumple as tears began to roll down his pale cheeks.

"No" he whispered "nonono"

"I'm so so sorry den" I sighed quietly, knowing too well that my words meant nothing to him. This is killing us. We need to get out of here.

Denny walters

Day twelve

Jory says dad's dead. She said I should write about it. I don't wanna write. Dad can't be dead, there's no way, he was getting better. We need to get out of here.

Cassie Merrill

Day twelve

I feel awful. We all feel awful. Jory says Will is dead. Things are going downhill, snowballing, getting worse and worse. I don't know how much longer I can do this. We need to get out of here.

"We need to get out of here."

"We need to get out of here."

"We need to get out of here."

This is what they call the breaking point.