If Only [Completed]

06 - If Only -

Wang Yibo POV

Beijing, 06 - September - 20xx, 00.02 AM

I look around crying before ran frantically to the emergency room, bumping into a few people. I keep running.

I stopped in front of the emergency room, looking inside. I put my hand on the glass part of the door.

Zhan laying in the stretcher, still conscious, he looks around. Lots of Blood still covering his body and face. He looked scared, he still crying. The doctor and nurses put a bunch of machine to his body.

His pretty face is full of cuts and blood, there's large bruise everywhere in his body. It must be hurt. Zhan didn't like pain.

"Baby I'm here!" I shouted. He turned his head into the door. Look really sad, but he still looking at me with his adoring and loving eyes.

I cry harder.

"Baby! Zhan. I'm here Zhan. I'm here"

He smiles at me, I love you, his eyes said. He look at me, slowly closing his pretty eyes. This time, forever.

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Beijing, 06 - September - 20xx, 00.17 AM

"We are really sorry about your lost. We tried the best, but the bleeding-" I couldn't hear what the doctor say anymore.

I hug my lifeless lover cold body tighter. Crying harder. Bawling louder.

Help me.

Somebody help me.

Bring Zhan back to me.

I don't know how long I stayed like that. I hear soft voice "Yibo, I'm so sorry"

"Xuanlu" I feel someone hugged me.

"He's gone now. He's gone"

"How could this happen?" She hugged me tighter.

"I wanted to be with him. I really did" I sobs. Kissing his cold cheeks. "But I don't know what stopped me getting inside that damned cab"

"What am I supposed to do now? Zhan! Answer me" I hug his body tighter.

XuanLu said crying, "Put him down Yibo. They need to clean him"

"What should I do now? How could he just left like that?" I scream still holding him tightly. I won't have a chance to hug him after this.

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Beijing, 06 - September - 20xx, 17.17 PM

I lay sideways, clutching his pillow. Inhaling his lingering scent. I missed him already. I never knew this house would be too quite without him. I feel empty. There's something missing inside me.

There's this unexplainable pain in my heart. There's an unexplained pain inside. Feels like something squeezed my heart.

I close my eyes trying to remember his smile.

We buried him immediately, Xuan Lu called his mom earlier to tell about his passed, his family will arrived tomorrow. His mom said, it's better for Zhan to get buried immediately. His mom also said, we can bury him in Beijing, so he can rest close to me. She said, that's what Zhan want.