If Only [Completed]

- Epilogue -

Xiao Zhan POV

Beijing, 06 - September - 20xx 10.40 AM

3 Years after

This is my last exhibition before I retired. This exhibition is about memories.

The memory between me, and him. The only love I had in this life.

I look at his photographs. He smiles, he frowns, he eats, he holds my hand, he sleeps, he work and he cried.

His tears look so beautiful, That's the first time I saw Yibo. Crying in front of the picture I took.

I look around, people came to me and said this exhibition is awesome. I smile and say thank you.

For me this is reminiscing. About him, about love.

Today is the day I lost him, 3 years ago. My heart been numb since then, I can't feel anything. I've tried my best to live my life fully and do whatever I want.

Sadly, I kinda failed at that. My heart is giving up, it's unable to do its best anymore. Shijie said it's better to retired and take a vacation. I said yes.

The doctor said I need to take care of my body, I've been feeling tired too often these days. Today, I really don't feel good. My body is chilly, and I feel extremely lethargic. It's always ends up like this whenever Yibo's death anniversary came.

I continue looking at the photographs, and stopped at the big monitor in the middle. It's our short video I took at our trip in South Korea.

He ran around in the yellow flower field. Looking so free.

We chased each other, I ended up tripped and fell down, we laughed.

We sat in the middle of the flower fields, I lay on his lap, holding the camera, zoomed in to his face. He closed his eyes, looking up, letting the breeze caresses his face and hair. He rarely do something like that.

He open his eyes and look at my direction, "I love you Zhan. I really do" and he smiles.

Me too Yibo. Me too.

One lone tears fell down.

And pain came out of no where, I clutched my chest trying to lessen the pain. My vision blurred and I no longer have the strength to stand.

Someone catch me before I collided with the floor. I can hear someone calling my name, I close my eyes, trying to bear the pain.

I can hear the big clock chimes in the distance. There's a new big clock tower in the city. The entire city can hear the chimes every hour, almost like the Big Ben tower in London.

1..

2..

3..

....

11...

And Everything went dark.

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I feel a soft fresh breeze, where am I? I look around.

Everything looks beautiful here. So peaceful. I kind of mesmerized at the scenery in front of me. I look at the right and stopped.

Someone else here.

It's him. My sight blurred because of the tears.
He stood below the cherry blossom. Still looking handsome as ever.

He turned around and froze, he looked startled seeing me.

My Yibo, my Mr. Wang.

"Zhan?" He call my name, stunned. He still sounds the same. I bit my lower lips. Blinks repeatedly so I can see his face more clearly.

"Why are you here already?" He tilt his head smiling sadly. "You should've take your time" He said with sad voice. I stood up frozen. It's really Yibo. He walks up to me.

"I miss you Zhan. Come here" He opened his arms and I jump right to it.

"I miss you Yibo. Very much" I bury my head into his neck, inhaling his scent. The scent I miss.

And I bawls. Letting out everything I held back deep inside ever since Yibo left.

"I know. Stop crying, I'm here" He kissed my head. "Thank you for holding on. But you came here too soon, love" I can hear regret in his voice.

"I tried Yibo, I tried" I hug him tighter, his body still has the same comforting feeling. It's warm.

"I know Zhan. I know" he hugs me tighter.

"And I miss you, so much" I said, burying my face deeper into his neck.

"Yeah. Me too" He said, hugging me tighter.

He cup my face to look at my face, he chuckles and wipe my tears "As always, you're looking beautiful even in tears"

"Damn flirt!" I hit his chest.
He laughed. How I miss his laughter.

"What are you doing here Mr. Wang?" I caress his handsome face. I really miss him.

"Waiting for you. What else" He smiles.

"You shouldn't have to. What if I took too long?"

"I'll still be here Zhan" He kiss my nose. I bit my lower lips, holding back my tears.

"What if after waiting so long, I came, but holding onto someone else's hand?" I tried to joke around so I wouldn't cry.

"Um- I'll ask him to take care of you" He smile.

I cry at that "Don't do that. I have none else. You should take care of me" I jump at his embrace.

"Yeah I know, you only have me" He said patting my hair.

"Mn"

"Welcome home Zhan" He whispers.

"Mn. I'm home, Mr. Wang"

Finally, I'm home.

********* Fin **********

It's done~
I'm happy..
Let's met in another YiZhan story.
Well I hope I can finish another draft soon.

Hope you like it~

Tell me what story I should publish next.
Another tragedy or what? 😅

See you all~
Thanks a lot for coming here..

-lilfujo