In which Sean Xiao Wants to complete his Family so that he Travel around the World to find Ivy Wang his wife. After 3 Years of Searching he failed. He become hopeless.
He Met The Boy named Wang Yibo, The boy who looks the same as his wife. He wants...
“This is an illness that takes away a woman’s ability to access joy , right at the time she needs it the most”
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Ivy wakes up early and walked to the baby room. She carry Yuan and sing a lullaby when the other one gets awake Ivy gets panic when The baby girl is crying like a mess.
“Baobei, qing tingzhi kuqi. Mama zai zheli”(Baby, stop crying Mommy is here)
Baby Yuna still not stop from crying until Ivy gets pressured and feel anxiety makes her out of control. “If you don’t stop from crying ill throw you a pillow”- Ivy stop from shouting when she gets calm. She cried and feels guilty on what she said.
“ Duibuqi baobei... Duibuqi, wo conglai meiyou xianguo shanghai ni, baobei Duibuqi.. Mommy shi ruci yuchun.. Duibuqi baobei" (Sorry baby ... sorry, I never thought of hurting you, baby sorry .. mom is so stupid .. sorry baby).
After that they Ivy gets weak, pale and lose her appetite, Sean gets worried and he always found out Ivy always say a negative words and she always want to die.
Sean decides to go in the hospital together with his wife.
“Sean… I don’t want to do this… I’m scared”
“Darling I’m here… Haikuan Ge doesn’t do anything he wants to talk to you about your condition please tell him about your problem..” Dr. Liu talked about Ivy’s situation. I have a clue on what happen to Sean’s wife.
“Can you please tell me about what happen to you recently???”
“By about a week in, I hadn’t slept much at all. I’d lay my head down and would just hear wailing. I heard her cry even when she wasn’t crying. I think I got only about a couple of hours a night. It was the greatest exhaustion I had ever felt. Nothing prepares you for the sleep deprivation from bringing newborn home. I became scared of my own baby. So I kept trying with nursing, despite increased exhaustion, anxiety, and frankly, just straight up misery throughout the process. She was a tiny, helpless, little thing, and this hurts my heart to say now I was scared of her. I was scared of her waking up. I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to soothe her. I was scared that she’d want to feed and we couldn’t latch. I was scared that she’d die in my care. I felt like a complete failure as a mother. I hated this feeling. I was convinced I couldn’t raise her and wanted to give her away to a mother who could raise her better. I ended up asking my mom to raise her and told her I’d pay her for it since she’d have to quit her job. This scared her quite a bit. It scared me, too. I just completely believed that my baby would be better off under someone else’s care.”
Ivy crying in front of her husband and Dr. Liu Haikuan. And she continue saying what’s on her mind.
“Then the suicidal thoughts came. I was terrified that I would never get better. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to function normally or go back to work, then I’d just be a useless burden forever. I had fantasies about how to end it all. I prayed to not wake up, and that’s a pretty awful prayer, I want to die.. I don’t want them to be pity on me..”
“Mrs. Xiao I tell you honestly… If you think you may suffering from Postnatal Depression, there is no reason to feel guilty or ashamed.It can happen to anyone and its not your fault Mrs. Xiao.”
After the consultation The couple have a heart to heart talk.
