Mixtapes of silent cries

STORY NO# 2 How can I miss someone I've never met

"CALEB? LOOK AT THE SKY, ITS BEAUTIFUL, ISN'T IT?" she said while staring at the night sky.

"Yes, it's beautiful like you." I saw how her face got red when she heard it. I'm really attracted to her beautiful face, and also on her humble personality. I really love her.

"I can't stop staring at the sky because it's beautiful, and also on you, I can't stop staring at your beautiful face," I said then I hold her hand.

"Look, there's a comet, let's close our eyes and wish," she said, she close her eyes and I close my eyes too.

"I wish that someday, I'll see you wearing a white dress and walking on the aisle towards me, I want you to be my wife Freya, and I want to have a five children with you, and we will live happily in our dream house," I said while my eyes are closed, but when I heard her crying my eyes instantly opened.

"What's wrong Freya? Why are you crying?" I said then I hug her.

"Alam ko kase na hindi ko matutupad ang hiling mo." The smile on my lips fade when I heard it.

"Caleb? Please let me go, forget me!" she said while the tears are slowly streaming down on her face.

"Freya? I can't! Please! don't do this to me, Freya mahal kita hindi ko kayang gawin 'yon," I said while wiping her tears.

"Mas makakabuti sa'yo na mawala ako, ialis mo na'ko sa isipan mo, hindi ka magiging okay kung andito parin ako sa'yo, I'm begging you Caleb, please forget me." She pleaded but I just waggled my head.

"No Freya, I can't do that, I really love you, please naman, wag mo gawin sakin 'to. Please stay with me Freya."

"But Caleb? Para ito sa ikabubuti mo, para sa ikaaayos ng kalusugan mo, para gumaling ka na sa sakit mo..." her words are cutted when someone calls me.

"Patient Caleb De dios? What are you doing here outside? It's already 12 midnight, common let's go to your room." A lady that wearing a lab gown walks towards me, then she pull my hand.

"But doc? Kausap ko pa si Freya.." when I say that I look at my back but..

"Hmm Freya? Where are you? Freya?" I said in worrying tone.
"Caleb? Hindi totoo si Freya! She's just your imaginary lover." Doctor Stella said then she pull my hand..."Let's go to your room."

"But doc? Kausap ko lang siya kanina!" I shouted.

"Please forget her Caleb, she's not real, she's just existing on your mind, she's just living on your hallucinations, please forget her, pagalingin mo naman ang sarili mo."

" Pero Doc? Mahal ko siya!"

"It's enough Caleb, mas magiging malala ang sakit mo kung di mo siya iiwan, humanap ka ng babaeng totoo, yung nag eexist talaga sa mundo."

"But I love her.." I said again.

"Remember? You're a Schizophrenic person, nakikita mo lang siya dahil may sakit ka, please pagalingin mo naman sarili mo."

Para akong binuhusan ng tubig nang marinig ko iyon, yes Freya is not real, she's just existing on my hallucination. Mas gugustohin kong hindi na lang ako gumaling sa sakit na'to para lang makasama ko siya. I really love her, pero kailangan ko siyang kalimutan para sa ikabubuti ng mental health ko, and I can't because I'm Schizophrenically Inloved with her.

Kailangan niyang mawala para gumaling ako.

Ang hirap dahil siya na lang ang meron ako, siya nalang ang nagmamahal sakin, how I wish na totoo na lang siya. Mahal ko siya pero kailangan ko siyang iwan para sa ikabubuti ko..."Freya! I'm glad that I met you, thanks for all your love and memories. I'm sorry I need to forget you. I love you Freya."

I'm Caleb De dios, a guy who suffering from a mental disease called 'Schizoprenia'. A guy who fell in love to a girl who's just existing on his imagination.

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