DELICATE DESIRE (Unedited)

18: Lose

Milo

"Daddy"

I was on my sleep when I heard Louen's voice calling me, so even though I still feel exhausted I barely open my eyes and look at her standing in front of me.

My whole system awakens when I saw her crying while taping my shoulders. Her eyes were swollen and her nose were also red, "Hey hey Baby why are you crying?" I whisper and pull her close to me.

I let her seat at the edge of the bed beside me and she continues snubbing, "what's the problem Baby?" I ask her again.

"D-daddy w-where m-my M-mommy" her voice were shattering because of her snobs. That's when I got back to my real sense and remember everything I did last night.

I was so tired from work and when I go home to Amari she create fight between us, so I choose to leave and got back here in Palawan even though it's already midnight, I was too drunk last night and I can still remember how Belle tried to stop me from drinking.

My eyes roam around the room and found a small stain of blood on the comforter which I quickly cover because Louen might see it.

But that blood gives me chills and remembers it all.

"I'll move when you tell me so, but if it pains you a lot...... I'm sorry but I will not stop here so please let me"

"I'm all yours" her voice runs into my mind like a beautiful melody.

I did it with her last night and I clearly feel that it's her first time; I knew it and I saw it with my own eyes.

"Mommy" Louen continue crying so I remove the comforter that covers my lower body but my eyes widened when I'm already wearing my under garments and my plain white pajama, I don't remember wearing ti last night after what happens.

"Where's you're mommy baby?' I ask her and carry her out of the bed, binuksan ko ang kortina ng mga bintana at pumasok at sinag ng araw sa buong silid.

"I can't find her Daddy" What Louen's said made me feel strange so I quickly went out of the room and find her in the whole house but I failed there is no Belle in my house.

"Where is she?" I whisper, "Daddy, Mommy wasn't supposed to go to work now because it's Sunday bukas pa po siya dapat aalis right? Where did my Mommy go?" she's right bukas pa dapat ang alis ni Belle dito sa bahay, dahil iyon ang nasa usapan namin but where the hell is she now?

"Baby maybe you go take your breakfast first and I'll find mommy baka may pinuntahan lang yon" I tried to calm her down and lessen worry, "No Daddy, Mommy's bag is gone two if she just went somewhere why did she bring her bag po" my daughter said.

I smiled at her and "Daddy will find Mommy ok" I said and guide her to the kitchen, Even the breakfast counter where so clean, that was mess last night.

Did she clean all of this before leaving without saying goodbye to her daughter!

Louen eats her breakfast, still snobing but I make ways to stop her by calling Belle, but she was unattended but I act like she answered because Louen is staring at me and waiting for me to talk.

"Hey where are you our Daughter is looking for you?" I said even though I have no one to talk too in the other line.

"Oww ok ok I understand I'll tell it to her bye" i glance at her; I feel sudden pity on my daughter because she really look hopeful by her mommy's information.

I smiled at her first before talking, "Mommy had an emergency patient on her work baby so she leave early and she tell me to say sorry to you because she didn't want to bother our sleep that early, you'll see her next week ok..." I make my own excuse for her.

Louen pouted so I smile at her and hug her up, "you understand Mommy's work right?" I ask.

She nodded, "Oh yon naman pala eh stop crying na Mommy is saving people right now so be cheerful and let's just wait for her next week" I cheer her up, her expression lighten up because of what I said and she resume eating, while I grab my phone again and text Belle.

I also tried to track her but her phone was shut down and I can't find were she is right now. Did she run away after what happen last night? Does she regret it?

"Hello Raider I need you too search someone for me" I called my man.

"Who is it sir?"

"My daugther's mother she's around here in El Nido, find her as soon as possible ok" my fist harden when I got the thought of losing her in my mind.

I can't lose her, Louen needs her...

After that morning, I still don't have any lead where she is, and It's almost two weeks pass by Louen is getting worry about her, she always cry at night and with that two weeks I never leave her side, I let my man bring my work here in Palawan so I can still work while watching out for my daughter.

"Louen baby let's eat breakfast now, are you awake?" as I open the door on her room I found her seating at the floor and looking at her Mommy's picture.

She crying again, I know she miss Belle so much and it kills me every day that passes by the I can't bring her back to this house, I'm starting to lose my mind too every night because I can't get her out of my mind either.

bigla nalang siyang nawal after what happen to us that night, I don't have any word at her after that, but her words where stuck in my mind running all night so it's hard for me to sleep.

"I love you" her voice.

"I love you Milo" her last word before she leave.

"Mommy" Louen call her name, "Baby you're crying again, diba sabi ni Daddy mommy is just so busy" I said and carry her out of her room.

"I miss her Daddy" so as I.

"she also miss you don't worry baby, come let's atek your breakfast and were going somewhere after this" I said that catch her attention so she stop crying.

"Where daddy?" she ask.

"You're going to meet my mother, you're grandmother and also were going to visit Tita Blace" what I said lighten up here face, and she got excited hearing Tita Blace name.

"Mommy Lola daddy!!!" I chuckled and nodded.

Her energy got back and mabilsi niyang inubos ang pagkain niya, Last night I decided this thing, pupunta kami ng Manila ni Louen I'll let her meet my mom and family, also I'll talk to Amari, i know that this may hurt her so bad but I don't want to hide Louen anymore.

And whatever Amari's decision, I will respect it.

"Daddy I'm ready" I glance at my daughter after she went out of her room wearing a pink dress that I bought for her last time.

She turns around, but I sudden saw an image of Belle on her, the way she smile and chuckled all I see is Belle in her.

My heart skip beat for a moment and remember Belle's beautiful face. Does she true to what she said to me that night? Does she really love me?

I smile at Louen and "You look like you're mother a lot baby" I said and held her little hands as we head to my private chopper.

We fly back to manila and I bring her with me.

"Amari" I utter as she opens the door of the house; her eyes went down to Louen, and gaze back at me.

Nakatitig lang sila sakin at may mga katanungan sakanyang mga mata pero mas pinili niyang manahimik muna at pinatuloy kami sa loob ng bahay.

"Manang can you bring Louen two my room and let her play there" I ask one of our maids here. Kinuha nito saking si Louen at dinala sa itaas, I seated at the couch and Amari did the same thing, she seated in front of me.

"Who is she?" She asks.

"My daughter" I firmly said and look straight on her eyes, pain quickly showed on her eyes and I feel guilty on that.

"D-daugther???" she utters.