Why Me?!

My mind went completely blank after that. Not listening to the doctor, Jayden,Mum...

Leukemia...I have leukemia...Me...

I didn't feel like me any more, it felt like i was someone totally different. Im just the one stuck in there body with this horrible disease.

"Violet?" Jayden's sweet voice rung inside my head. I blinked a couple of times, I wanted this to all be a dream, all I had to do was wake up. But this was reality, this was happening now...

"Sorry" I whispered. I lifted my hand to my face wiping away the tears that had fallen.

"Its fine Violet, come on we're going home now" he smiled at me. I smiled back but inside all I wanted to do was cry, cry until I couldn't cry no more. Jayden reviled his hand to me, I took it instantlygripping hard. I took in the way his hand felt how it had its softness but roughness. I felt all the lines that ran through his hand. I sighed, Jayden noticed instantly his head turning towards me with a concern look on that handsome face.

"Violet?? Whats wrong??" he questioned as his eyes searched all over my face for the answer but it wasnt showing. I didnt know how to feel anymore. It felt like everything had been removed from the moment that doctor said those words.

"Nothing, nothings wrong" But there was something wrong, everything was wrong, I had Leukemia. My voice was empty and cold. Mum was sobbing in Jacobs arms. Alex was going to meet us back at home, so one of us was going to tell him the news. We got into the car Mum started driving slowly since the tears were still falling fast. I was looking out the window, watching the world speed by but as I did I thought about all the things I was going to never have...A husband. My own wedding. My first child. A family...I would never see Jacob live his life with a partner have his own children. My nieces and nephews. I wouldnt become a grandmother. But I wouldnt be able to see Jayden, the one person I have ever truly cared about, he's the one I wanted to marry. The one to have all my children with, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Jayden, but now that was only a dream. A myth...something I would never get to see. A single tear ran down my cheek but as soon as it appeared it was gone, Jayden had wiped it away. I looked into those beauitftul eyes, the eyes I wanted to wake up to every morning. The smile on his face warmed me as if he was telling me everything was fine, that the trip to the doctors never happened that we were still at home. He lifted my chin for a second I thought he was going to kiss me but that feeling washed away.

"Violet..." he whispered my name, I smiled showing him I was fine. But was i really? No. No I wasnt.

"We're home guys" Mum whispered between sobs. I sighed getting out the car then slamming the door behind me. I ran up to the front door,

"Violet! Wait For Me!!" Mum cried. I barged opened the door, not stopping for anything. I ran through the living room I finally let the tears fall. I ran past Alex who was sitting on the sofa, he jumped up when he saw me enter

"Violet" He grinned with his arms wide open, I pushed past him almost knocking him of his feet.

"Violet?" he questioned I felt his eyes watching me as I bolted out the room.

"VIOLET!!" Jayden's voice echoed around the house, I ran tripped up the stairs. I wanted to pick my self up but I couldnt, I didnt have the energy. I curled myself into a ball weeping my screams filled the room. Mum rushed into the room she stood there watching me, this only caused her to cry more she fall onto her knee's. Alex was by her in seconds picking her up again. But did anyone help me? The one who needed help most?? No they all left me there crying on the stairs like a twit.

"Violet..." whispered the same voice as a before, I wanted to stop for Jayden but once I had let them fall they werent going to stop. I felt his arms wrap around me. We were moving, he was taking me to my room. I wrapped my arms around his neck weeping on his shoulder. Why me?! Why now?!